Boulevard of Broken Dreams......Muy Muy Muy
oh god how can i explain everything thats happened. jesus. christ. uhm ok well ill start with last night. we came home and my mum and kent were bawling it out, and so i had to hear him scream his fucking shit about my "drunk, druggie dad" who aparantly is on drugs once again, and i walk into the room, going to get some markers for somthing i cant remember.
me: (walks into room looking for markers)
kent: (yelling at mom) (stops) what is she doing here? (yet another person pretending i cant understand what they're saying)
mom: hey rowan, this isnt a very good time ok?
me: Well...uh i just needed some markers
kent: MARKERS???(yelling) WELL MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO LIVE WITH YOUR FUCKING DAD! THEN MAYBE HE COULD BUY YOU SOME FUCKING MARKERS!!!
mom: kent..please...
ketn: I CANT TAKE THIS SHIT. THATS RIGHT ROWAN S-H-I-T (spells it out for me as if i dont know what it means) SHIT! YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT AND I CANT TAKE IT!!! YOULL HAVE TO GO TO BOARDING SCHOOL!!!(to my mom) ADINA WHY CANT WE JUST SEND HER AWAY TO BOARDING SCHOOL?? THEN SHE'D KNOW WHAT REAL LIFE WAS LIKE!!!
mom: (gives me a look to leave the room)
me: (starts to walk away)
kent: WHERE ARE YOU GOING???
me: well..(i really shouludnt have said this it only made shit worse)...i dont want to stay here you and talk shit about my dad.
kent: OH!! THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO HEAR!! YOU WONT TALK SHIT TO YOUR DAD BUT YOU'lL TALK SHIT TO ME???IS THAT HOW IT IS??? WELL YOURE GOING TO HAVE TO FACE IT!!! IM THE HEAD OF THIS HOUSE!!! YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT!!SHIT!!!
me: (starts to cry and trys to leave)
kent: (steps in the doorway so i cant get out)
me: (crys more)
mom: kent let her go...
kent: (steps aside)
so then i went into my room and bawled for an hour, and then grace called and was all like "oh yeah rowan i feel like im not popular anymore" and im like FUCK YOU you dont KNOW what life is and i just told her i had to go and then i went and cried some more. anyways them my mom felt bad and gave me my internet back for an hour and then i was on AIM and i was talking to max.
me: should i die my hair red, or blue again?
max: i think you should go back to being rowan
me: what you talking about? i AM rowan!
max: not anymore ur not
me: um...why?
max: your...different
me: HOW AM I DIFFERNT?
max: u just....r
me: god this is so deppressing
max: you just dont get it (blocks me)
then i felt really sick and went and threw up in the toilet and talked to grant and he made me feel better by saying i was phsyco. woopteefucking HOORAY.
so then today i went to school and i was kind of deppressed cuz of everuthing and to make it worse kevin...YES FUCKING KEVIN likes me. yes i was told that by tenny and my mom who got it from donald (kevin's brother) who apparantly was told that by kevin. and it SUCKS. fucking SUUCCCCKKKKSSSS AASSSSSSS. and so now i have a BUTTLOAD of homework and im really tired because every night i stay up really late from the fighting.
oh well fuck life im going to run away and kill myself or somthing.
much unloved love
rebel
me: (walks into room looking for markers)
kent: (yelling at mom) (stops) what is she doing here? (yet another person pretending i cant understand what they're saying)
mom: hey rowan, this isnt a very good time ok?
me: Well...uh i just needed some markers
kent: MARKERS???(yelling) WELL MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO LIVE WITH YOUR FUCKING DAD! THEN MAYBE HE COULD BUY YOU SOME FUCKING MARKERS!!!
mom: kent..please...
ketn: I CANT TAKE THIS SHIT. THATS RIGHT ROWAN S-H-I-T (spells it out for me as if i dont know what it means) SHIT! YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT AND I CANT TAKE IT!!! YOULL HAVE TO GO TO BOARDING SCHOOL!!!(to my mom) ADINA WHY CANT WE JUST SEND HER AWAY TO BOARDING SCHOOL?? THEN SHE'D KNOW WHAT REAL LIFE WAS LIKE!!!
mom: (gives me a look to leave the room)
me: (starts to walk away)
kent: WHERE ARE YOU GOING???
me: well..(i really shouludnt have said this it only made shit worse)...i dont want to stay here you and talk shit about my dad.
kent: OH!! THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO HEAR!! YOU WONT TALK SHIT TO YOUR DAD BUT YOU'lL TALK SHIT TO ME???IS THAT HOW IT IS??? WELL YOURE GOING TO HAVE TO FACE IT!!! IM THE HEAD OF THIS HOUSE!!! YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT!!SHIT!!!
me: (starts to cry and trys to leave)
kent: (steps in the doorway so i cant get out)
me: (crys more)
mom: kent let her go...
kent: (steps aside)
so then i went into my room and bawled for an hour, and then grace called and was all like "oh yeah rowan i feel like im not popular anymore" and im like FUCK YOU you dont KNOW what life is and i just told her i had to go and then i went and cried some more. anyways them my mom felt bad and gave me my internet back for an hour and then i was on AIM and i was talking to max.
me: should i die my hair red, or blue again?
max: i think you should go back to being rowan
me: what you talking about? i AM rowan!
max: not anymore ur not
me: um...why?
max: your...different
me: HOW AM I DIFFERNT?
max: u just....r
me: god this is so deppressing
max: you just dont get it (blocks me)
then i felt really sick and went and threw up in the toilet and talked to grant and he made me feel better by saying i was phsyco. woopteefucking HOORAY.
so then today i went to school and i was kind of deppressed cuz of everuthing and to make it worse kevin...YES FUCKING KEVIN likes me. yes i was told that by tenny and my mom who got it from donald (kevin's brother) who apparantly was told that by kevin. and it SUCKS. fucking SUUCCCCKKKKSSSS AASSSSSSS. and so now i have a BUTTLOAD of homework and im really tired because every night i stay up really late from the fighting.
oh well fuck life im going to run away and kill myself or somthing.
much unloved love
rebel