Stuff on my mind...
My paycheck was shorted about 1800...couldn't do anything about it Friday, so I get to wait until Tuesday and hope I get some money. This sucks. September 30 starts my normal contract moneys, so I shouldn't be shorted ever again (until next summer)...
Offered extra credit to the student who could find our clippers...ain't no one found them. I had to bail AGAIN on the same brother and sister because I can't shear their animals. I feel terrible, and the sister seemed disappointed in me. That sucks.
I'm tired and need some sleep...hope to get some today. I've been spending too much time with John and Mike...I'm getting all of my work done, but sleep has been definitely lacking. I'm supposed to hang with them again tonight...and I probably should, but Sunday night I'm staying here. I miss being online, I miss time to myself...they're awesome guys, but they don't have nearly the same workload I do. I need to rest.
Hardcore and I STILL haven't moved things around, which means I STILL don't have a bed. Granted, I haven't been home much...and when I do ask him he's too tired to help...and he doesn't want anyone else to help move it because they'd have to go in his room, which I understand. I just want to be settled and sleep in a bed...waking up to an alarm clock on your cell phone on the couch isn't the best way to start every morning.
My dad had surgery Wednesday and I had no idea about it...and I was a little sad he didn't call on my birthday (Thursday), but now I know why and it's all good.
Fair's in about a month, and I still feel like I'm letting my kids down by not really knowing what I'm doing with it all. I'm doing my best, and wish I could meet with the kids...but with two different lunches and varying schedules, it's impossible to meet with anyone. I can't wait until October 5th when fair is officially done and overwith...and I can get to the stuff I REALLY know and finally impress some people...FFA competitions and classwork.
My Biology class has 36 kids in it...I have seats for 28...this week has been hell trying to control them and teach anything...I lost part of my voice for the last two days...and I'm wanting to do a lab this week. They better change something...I can't have this many students and run an effective Biology lab.
I guess I just want to know I'm doing a good job...plenty people tell me so, and the donuts and flowers from the parent the other day touched me...I just feel like I'm letting too many people down with the fair. I know I'm inexperienced with goats, sheep, etc...and I wish I could help more, but I can't. I'm learning and hopefully next year will be better because I'll know the system AND I'll be there to set my own guidelines before they even buy their animals.
So many things I don't know, so many things to figure out, so many people counting on me. This is the problem with running an entire agriculture department by yourself. I'm already tired, and we only just finished week one. Dammit. Things will get better, and when we get to things I KNOW and I start to get really settled, I'll show 'em what I'm really capable of!
Offered extra credit to the student who could find our clippers...ain't no one found them. I had to bail AGAIN on the same brother and sister because I can't shear their animals. I feel terrible, and the sister seemed disappointed in me. That sucks.
I'm tired and need some sleep...hope to get some today. I've been spending too much time with John and Mike...I'm getting all of my work done, but sleep has been definitely lacking. I'm supposed to hang with them again tonight...and I probably should, but Sunday night I'm staying here. I miss being online, I miss time to myself...they're awesome guys, but they don't have nearly the same workload I do. I need to rest.
Hardcore and I STILL haven't moved things around, which means I STILL don't have a bed. Granted, I haven't been home much...and when I do ask him he's too tired to help...and he doesn't want anyone else to help move it because they'd have to go in his room, which I understand. I just want to be settled and sleep in a bed...waking up to an alarm clock on your cell phone on the couch isn't the best way to start every morning.
My dad had surgery Wednesday and I had no idea about it...and I was a little sad he didn't call on my birthday (Thursday), but now I know why and it's all good.
Fair's in about a month, and I still feel like I'm letting my kids down by not really knowing what I'm doing with it all. I'm doing my best, and wish I could meet with the kids...but with two different lunches and varying schedules, it's impossible to meet with anyone. I can't wait until October 5th when fair is officially done and overwith...and I can get to the stuff I REALLY know and finally impress some people...FFA competitions and classwork.
My Biology class has 36 kids in it...I have seats for 28...this week has been hell trying to control them and teach anything...I lost part of my voice for the last two days...and I'm wanting to do a lab this week. They better change something...I can't have this many students and run an effective Biology lab.
I guess I just want to know I'm doing a good job...plenty people tell me so, and the donuts and flowers from the parent the other day touched me...I just feel like I'm letting too many people down with the fair. I know I'm inexperienced with goats, sheep, etc...and I wish I could help more, but I can't. I'm learning and hopefully next year will be better because I'll know the system AND I'll be there to set my own guidelines before they even buy their animals.
So many things I don't know, so many things to figure out, so many people counting on me. This is the problem with running an entire agriculture department by yourself. I'm already tired, and we only just finished week one. Dammit. Things will get better, and when we get to things I KNOW and I start to get really settled, I'll show 'em what I'm really capable of!