Been a little blue lately
I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately, and I think this is the safest place to put it all.
My job search has sucked. I send out about 2-3 emails a day with my resume and never get any responces. I've put in applications at MAC, (my absolute dream job that ISN'T hiring) Dillard's, Bath & Body Works, and Starbucks. I think I'm going to have to get desprate considering I have $26 to my name with a mountain of bills to pay.
This is going to sound worse than it is, but I don't have any vices to turn to anymore now that I'm at home. No alcohol, no weed, no cigarettes, no nothing. So now I just cry. If I'm sad, upset, lonely, confused, angry, happy, depressed, or any feeling that I didn't just cover, I cry. And I am SO worn out from crying. I think I've gotten it down to once a day, which is a start, but it still sucks. I think maybe I need to talk to someone, before I go absolutely insane.
Not to mention, he's coming home this week, and I know he'll want to see me. I really don't need him right now. I have enough emotions running through my head without him. It would just further complicate my life. I need someone, but anyone but him. And it feels like no one else is here for me. None of my "at home" friends have called me to hang out. In fact, I bet I could turn my cell off and I wouldn't miss a single call.
I need my friends and my family. Don't they need me?
XOXO
Naomi
My job search has sucked. I send out about 2-3 emails a day with my resume and never get any responces. I've put in applications at MAC, (my absolute dream job that ISN'T hiring) Dillard's, Bath & Body Works, and Starbucks. I think I'm going to have to get desprate considering I have $26 to my name with a mountain of bills to pay.
This is going to sound worse than it is, but I don't have any vices to turn to anymore now that I'm at home. No alcohol, no weed, no cigarettes, no nothing. So now I just cry. If I'm sad, upset, lonely, confused, angry, happy, depressed, or any feeling that I didn't just cover, I cry. And I am SO worn out from crying. I think I've gotten it down to once a day, which is a start, but it still sucks. I think maybe I need to talk to someone, before I go absolutely insane.
Not to mention, he's coming home this week, and I know he'll want to see me. I really don't need him right now. I have enough emotions running through my head without him. It would just further complicate my life. I need someone, but anyone but him. And it feels like no one else is here for me. None of my "at home" friends have called me to hang out. In fact, I bet I could turn my cell off and I wouldn't miss a single call.
I need my friends and my family. Don't they need me?
XOXO
Naomi