Because I'm feeling some burn out...
This is a nice long weekend for me and I find it so well-timed. You see, Saturday October 18th will be the day I take the Biochemistry, Cell and Molecular Biology GRE. Yeah. That's in less than a week. Just writing it makes me heart rate elevate.
I've been studying slowly, but surely, for a long while and have managed to remember a lot of things from my undergrad classes as well as learn some things in more detail than I had been taught. It's actually be fun; I like learning and I like biology, so really it makes sense. However, tell me I have to take a test and that's when I get slightly crazy. So yeah, this long weekend I'm a very boring person and am mostly just sitting around studying and solidifying my knowledge. In the meanwhile, applications to grad schools invade my subconcious...
1. A while back I dreamt that I was taking the subject test GRE and that a little before time was called, I realized I had taken the math subject test instead of the one I was supposed to take.
2. More recently I dreamt that I visited my undergrad advisor, who is writing one of my letters of recommendation, and asked if the online submission went smoothly. She assured me it went very well, but added that she had written a bad letter about me. She felt I wasn't ready for grad school, lazy and not committed to it. When I woke up it took me a while to realize it was a dream, but I was very glad it was just a dream.
3. Just yesterday I woke up with tears streaming out of my eyes due to another grad school app related nightmare. In this one, I had the chance to see a letter of rec written by the guy whose lab I currently work in. In his letter he wrote that when I started in the lab I was completely incompetent and a terrible technician, but that things had gotten better, but through no improvement in me. After reading it, I ran away sobbing. Then I woke up.
After the coming Saturday I will be happier. After I submit my applications I think it will be better... Until I start wondering when I'll hear from places...
Not much more in other news, I suppose. I did get to see some friends this weekend in between the studying. Gabe continues to teach and enjoy it. He's also getting into some research that he's come to enjoy. I'm pleased he's being drawn in by something.
I've been studying slowly, but surely, for a long while and have managed to remember a lot of things from my undergrad classes as well as learn some things in more detail than I had been taught. It's actually be fun; I like learning and I like biology, so really it makes sense. However, tell me I have to take a test and that's when I get slightly crazy. So yeah, this long weekend I'm a very boring person and am mostly just sitting around studying and solidifying my knowledge. In the meanwhile, applications to grad schools invade my subconcious...
1. A while back I dreamt that I was taking the subject test GRE and that a little before time was called, I realized I had taken the math subject test instead of the one I was supposed to take.
2. More recently I dreamt that I visited my undergrad advisor, who is writing one of my letters of recommendation, and asked if the online submission went smoothly. She assured me it went very well, but added that she had written a bad letter about me. She felt I wasn't ready for grad school, lazy and not committed to it. When I woke up it took me a while to realize it was a dream, but I was very glad it was just a dream.
3. Just yesterday I woke up with tears streaming out of my eyes due to another grad school app related nightmare. In this one, I had the chance to see a letter of rec written by the guy whose lab I currently work in. In his letter he wrote that when I started in the lab I was completely incompetent and a terrible technician, but that things had gotten better, but through no improvement in me. After reading it, I ran away sobbing. Then I woke up.
After the coming Saturday I will be happier. After I submit my applications I think it will be better... Until I start wondering when I'll hear from places...
Not much more in other news, I suppose. I did get to see some friends this weekend in between the studying. Gabe continues to teach and enjoy it. He's also getting into some research that he's come to enjoy. I'm pleased he's being drawn in by something.