Reality Check.....and check again...
Well, I'm back at school and it sucks! I'm really gald to be back here with Danielle, but I really seriously considered not coming back to school. I don't knwo what it is. My heart jsut isn't in it this semester, and lately I've been really scared of growing up and having to go out in the real world. I've been really depressed and I feel like no one has really cared to deal with that aspect of me. I don't feel like I have any friends at school, and the whole parking my car incident when I got back really sealed that deal for me. I guess I'm just in a bad place right now.
My parents divorce trial is Thursday so I have to go home after my night class tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it. I feel like it's going to make it all real and I guess I'm still kind of in denial about it. I'm terrified that both my parents are going to walk out of it hating me and I don't want it to be like that again. They never liked me before the divorce and at least in the past year I've gotten somewhat closer with my mom....Oh well I need to stop because their is no one here to hug me...
My parents divorce trial is Thursday so I have to go home after my night class tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it. I feel like it's going to make it all real and I guess I'm still kind of in denial about it. I'm terrified that both my parents are going to walk out of it hating me and I don't want it to be like that again. They never liked me before the divorce and at least in the past year I've gotten somewhat closer with my mom....Oh well I need to stop because their is no one here to hug me...