Safest Place to Hide....
Haven't posted in here in forever....
Not really gonna do this often but just needed a place to vent which no one will read anyway.
Feeling so completely alone lately... and not just like I have in the past.... this is isn't depression talking, this is actual loneliness...
My (i guess) former best friend hasn't spoken to me since March, my father's family isn't happy with me so we've barely spoken, I'm pissed at most of my mom's family, my other good friend is moving farther away, and I've lost touch or barely speak to other friends... so yeah... should make more friends I guess but I'm just not a person that people like generally...
Just nothing is going well in my life... so freaking stressed at work, gained more weight, health issues, family is fucked up, lack of friends/support, no romantic prospects, no career aims, school is driving me insane, even my dog is acting up.... I just dunno what to do....
For now just drinking and biding my time I guess... in that kind of "shut down" mode... not feeling much... blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
peace and the more things change, the more they stay the same
Not really gonna do this often but just needed a place to vent which no one will read anyway.
Feeling so completely alone lately... and not just like I have in the past.... this is isn't depression talking, this is actual loneliness...
My (i guess) former best friend hasn't spoken to me since March, my father's family isn't happy with me so we've barely spoken, I'm pissed at most of my mom's family, my other good friend is moving farther away, and I've lost touch or barely speak to other friends... so yeah... should make more friends I guess but I'm just not a person that people like generally...
Just nothing is going well in my life... so freaking stressed at work, gained more weight, health issues, family is fucked up, lack of friends/support, no romantic prospects, no career aims, school is driving me insane, even my dog is acting up.... I just dunno what to do....
For now just drinking and biding my time I guess... in that kind of "shut down" mode... not feeling much... blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
peace and the more things change, the more they stay the same