*ramblings & "drabble" (not less random) ^^;
Did you listen to it? NewS' new single~
That's crazy, how I love every song of NewS..
yea, that's not something happens everyday with every group/singer
so, you see how 'important' their place in my heart ^^
what i am talking about, woaa..
i'm so bored
My fish refuses to eat these days. I'm worried..
Yesterday, I stayed beside her for hours, and pray, I give her fav food
but, she didn't make a move.
I thought she died, and I cried, stupidly..
5 years, my step father gave me a goldfish as birthday present..
my mom said, it couldn't possibly last for too long.
I just didn't know how to take care of *anything*
even saying so..
Now, she got like 5 times bigger, I dun't even know if it's a girl..
but since, she's remarkably beautiful, it must be a girl, i thought one day ^_^
..ah!
i know
i Know, she needs a companion!!
she'd been a loner for too long now
i dun't want her to have same fate as me :( no, scratch that ^^
i won't let you die.
you have to stay with me, at least... until i find someone to replace you
so eat, & get well.
Recently, I got to play a game with xcry, a drabble challenge !! my first time doing this.. it was fun, thank you *heart*
it's 01:15AM here & i can't sleep, so i want to do something, even sthing with no sense at all ^^;
ah another thing before starting, it's more like a 'script', there'll be some description but not much (just enough), so just imagine the rest as you like ^^ & sorry for all the incoherent parts ^^;
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The boy closed the door behind him, took out his shoes & put it neatly next to a pair of high heels.
"she's there." his lips curl into a small smile.
In the kitchen, he could hear the knives cutting sound & percieves some familiar smells.
which he loves.
"you're here." he whispers as he holds his arms around the girl's waist..
surprised, "wha- !" she yells "..." "when did you" "how" "??"
her questions are left unanswered, as the boy tightens his arms & rest his chin on her shoulder.
his eyes closed, he smiles.
"don't sleep here" she points
"..."
she puts down the knife, & touched his face, gently
"don't turn around" he says, eyes keep closing
"huh" she tilts her head "what do you have today"
"nothing" he says in a whisper
"you're strange" as she decides to turn back to her cooking..
a moment, "don't do things here," "i'm cooking" she stated
"are you sleeping?" "hey" "heyyy"
"why are you alwayz so annoying.." the boy mumbles, his eyes still closed
"huf.." she pouts & makes an incoherent noise
. . .
"what is it" he suddenly speaks up
which startles her a bit, "what?"
"the smell"
"ah, it's beef stew" ".." "open your eyes &you'll see how i do that" "..." "are you listening?" ".." "hmm" "if like that, you can never learn to cook when you're by yourself"
"it won't happen" he says calmly,
"yea, there'll alwayz be someone to be there to cook for ya, right"
he smirks, which doesn't please her "what's with that" she asks
"nothing" ".." "i just think your getting angry easily, is cute"
"oh" ".." "but, was i?"
he shakes his head, tightens his his arms abit more & finally let out a long breath..
...
"Did you change your shampoo?" he askes
"yea, just lately" "my hair got dry quickly, so i decide to change the shampoo" ".." "why?"
"it smells different"
"oh yea" "i like its perfume," she says with enthusiasm "you know what" "my hair is still 'virgin' "
the boy half opens his eyes, finally. "huh?"
"you don't know? it means, i still have my original hair color" "i never dyed it"
"not even once?"
"i'm not like you, ya know"
he closed his eyes again, his chin still resting peacefully on her
"well, as if it makes any difference"
"beside.." he continues, slowly, as he leans closer & kisses on her neck..
she shrugs a little, makes a face "stop that" "not now, i'm cooking!"
"i'm hungry"
"that's why," "let me finish this" "i'm starving too!" she tries to sound dictated
he sucks in, "i was not talking about that", &continues his 'journey', now to her ears, he can feel her shivering.
all of sudden, he stops his movement.
then abruptly turns the girl face to him..
"tell me.." he looked bit reluctant, "when we did that for the 1st time" "..." "is it yours ?"
the girl, eyes widden, blinks her eyes then looks away, "what's with that question" "you should know that" she felt her face burning up
"but it was so dark & everything happened so fast.."
she frowned "why you're talking about that now" she still avoids his face, as to hide her pinky red cheeks
"well" "i just want to know"
"what," "know what" she's searching
"uhm" he looks hesitated "because... you went out with him," he stops, but continue all the way "before me" he finishes his phrase with a bitter feeling inside, wth made him to mention that now, he thought.
the girl stays mute. as she tries to make the boy understand that the conversation should stop there.
"what will make different" she quietly speaks up, just to break the silence
"even if i did that with someone else, it's not as if it was your first" now she got angry, this time, for real. she just can't support her boyfriend's egotism anymore..
she pushes the boy away & makes her steps..
before the boy could think of anything, he grabs her hand & pulls her into a tight hug
...
sometimes he thinks he may be a retarded.. nobody could tell, though
When she accepted to be with him, he couldn't believe it.
he couldn't think of anything that makes her take that decision
she loves, no, she loved that man, ... not him
perhaps, she knew that he had waited for her, that in silent, he spent his days falling for her more & more, deeper & deeper..
he feels miserable
when he looked at her all the time, but she never saw him
when she smiled at someone else
when that man kissed her, ... in front of him
when he saw her outside the building, waiting for someone, anyone, but him
he was alwayz there, ready at any moment to take her away & make her his,
but he never did,
and she never was..
pathetic,
vulnerable
... desperate
how can he be that weak, a person like him, who alwayz finds a way to obtain things he wants, nobody nor anything could resist to his 'power'
when she's there, he & his self-importance doesn't exist anymore
he's just become a man, hopelessly in love
Now, that she's in his embrace
he's still not sure if it's a dream, an illusion,
this could be a clone, or something that God. has offered him, but again, he has done nothing to deserve that..
she's not a person with many words..
just sometimes, her soul is like going out of her body
it took him time to be habit to it.
she's there, but where is her heart?
he may sound greedy & demanding, but, but he only has her, don't you think he has the right?
there's like a billion questions he wanna ask her, but he never, or that he could,
just like a moment ago, she's about to 'leave' him
for a sec, nothing seems important for him anymore
nothing, but her.
he's scared
she may disappear one day of his life,
and his heart will be broken, just like before
but this time, it can't ever be recovered..
he buries his face into her collar
"what do you have today.." "you're acting so strange" as she ruffles his hair, &pats on his head
"i love you" he breathes into her hair
the girl pulls the boy off & stares at him, with anxiety
"are you ok?"
she wraps his face in both her hands,
looking at her worried, concerned face, somehow, makes all his wonders, unsure thoughts fade away in instant
he smiles ,took her hands down & lean towards her
their lips meet, one more time
nothing, nothing.. could change it
neither the past, nor the future
as now, they're together, he loves her, & through her touch, he can tell she's with him ,too..
and that's all that values.
only her, & his love.
The knife falls on the ground & makes a kling sound
..
but looks like it's going to stay there for a while
. . . .
"ne~"
she finally rests her body on his,
"hum?"
his mind is too blur &too worked out to make a coherent phrase
"later, that question.." ".." "why did you want to know"
he stops his breath
"were you doubting me?" she asks
"..." "no"
a silence imposes..
"it doesn't matter" as he pulls her up near to his face
"..at all"
she blinks her eyes in confuse
he smirks "because.." he rises towards her "because i will make sure" he says in the interval "that ..I'll be your last" without breaking their kiss.
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sorry for the lame, & i didn't expect it to be that long ^^;
Btw, i didn't mention the names of any character, but i think you guys can guess, huh?
if not, well, you can imagine whoever you want, or i will tell you ^^
See ya guys ;)