Entire Month neglected!
So I've been home for the summer...for a looong-butted time. will be 4 weeks tomorrow...holy crap, that's longer than my christmas break, and i still feel like ive done nothing. Let's try to review...it's a lot to review though
Leaving Wheaton was strange. It was all emptied out...i dunno...emotions got all silly there, cause it was one of those weird cool situations that represented something...or im just a ridiculously overemotional person who cant just let things be the superficial things that they are, hehe... "Josh! a school year ended, people put stuff in boxes. that's it. get over it!" One weird thing, the night before i was going home, i was looking out of the window and saw a red blinking light. It reminded me of being 10 or something, and looking out the window at this red blinking tower by my dads house. More nostalgia just flowed through. I remember thinking, im never gonna go back there. it felt like a memory of my childhood. but im a child! how can it feel like a different part of my life like this? how can it feel like such a different person? Yeah, that was weird.
I got to newark airport on may 7th, then dad and i ate some sushi at this new sushi place! *gasp* it was really really good....wow..hehe....just thinking about it... anyway, so dad and i talked and whatnot, then that night i went and saw jenna for the first time since spring break, that was really good. Of course ive seen her a bunch of times since then. Then that saturday and sunday were moms birthday and mothers day, so it was ultra mom weekend. on saturday we went to izumi, a japanese hibachi place. it was just really good to see my siblings, brittany, james, calais. And it was strange because around Jim i didnt feel all of the strange and ridiculous hesitations like i usually felt around him. I freely mentioned my dad in stories, didnt care about whatever he would think. I talked with james and britt in the car about christianity and the bible and all that good stuff. I felt strong. Then when we got back i saw jay, and that was really good, and we talked a whole lot back and forth then. It felt like two good friends seeing eachother for the first time in a while. Weird, its like we're brothers or something. That night there was a weird Jim explosion, and it wasnt the most welcoming home kind of thing. But oh well...I always do come home with incredibly idealisitc hopes. That whole building a better relationship with my stepfather thing isnt really unraveling the way id hoped it would.
What else...I visited Jenna's school and met her friends. I still havent seen John or Blake. I went to Toms house one night and we didnt realize that the rest of the world wasnt on summer vacation and didnt stay up till all hours of the night on mondays. So we ended up just chilling and talking. I hung out with Meredith Muzik a week ago, that was really cool. Yesterday I saw all the psychics and ate a midnight omellete. And i am now a professional ice cream scooper/ ice cream slammer down on big cold slab/ ice cream mixer upper on that big cold slab at Maggie Moos. Yesterday I got my syllabus for a course im taking with Rutgers, at this place in mount arlington. I have NOT been doing my greek summer reader...:-/ Okay...must start that today. i dont wanna lose all my greek knowledge. I also have not been praying. That is my biggest mistake of the summer. I can feel it. I need to pray. Because I'm not in Wheaton anymore, Toto, and old habits creep back in when I'm out here. I'm feeling prone to getting pissed off more quickly, and my language took a turn for the worst. And my laziness is just ridiculous.
Okay that was a super brief dabbling of the entire summer so far. I probably forgot a lot of worthy crap to be said. But i dont feel like thinking too hard. I havent been exercising that muscle a whole lot lately, and i wouldnt wanna go and pull it.
Leaving Wheaton was strange. It was all emptied out...i dunno...emotions got all silly there, cause it was one of those weird cool situations that represented something...or im just a ridiculously overemotional person who cant just let things be the superficial things that they are, hehe... "Josh! a school year ended, people put stuff in boxes. that's it. get over it!" One weird thing, the night before i was going home, i was looking out of the window and saw a red blinking light. It reminded me of being 10 or something, and looking out the window at this red blinking tower by my dads house. More nostalgia just flowed through. I remember thinking, im never gonna go back there. it felt like a memory of my childhood. but im a child! how can it feel like a different part of my life like this? how can it feel like such a different person? Yeah, that was weird.
I got to newark airport on may 7th, then dad and i ate some sushi at this new sushi place! *gasp* it was really really good....wow..hehe....just thinking about it... anyway, so dad and i talked and whatnot, then that night i went and saw jenna for the first time since spring break, that was really good. Of course ive seen her a bunch of times since then. Then that saturday and sunday were moms birthday and mothers day, so it was ultra mom weekend. on saturday we went to izumi, a japanese hibachi place. it was just really good to see my siblings, brittany, james, calais. And it was strange because around Jim i didnt feel all of the strange and ridiculous hesitations like i usually felt around him. I freely mentioned my dad in stories, didnt care about whatever he would think. I talked with james and britt in the car about christianity and the bible and all that good stuff. I felt strong. Then when we got back i saw jay, and that was really good, and we talked a whole lot back and forth then. It felt like two good friends seeing eachother for the first time in a while. Weird, its like we're brothers or something. That night there was a weird Jim explosion, and it wasnt the most welcoming home kind of thing. But oh well...I always do come home with incredibly idealisitc hopes. That whole building a better relationship with my stepfather thing isnt really unraveling the way id hoped it would.
What else...I visited Jenna's school and met her friends. I still havent seen John or Blake. I went to Toms house one night and we didnt realize that the rest of the world wasnt on summer vacation and didnt stay up till all hours of the night on mondays. So we ended up just chilling and talking. I hung out with Meredith Muzik a week ago, that was really cool. Yesterday I saw all the psychics and ate a midnight omellete. And i am now a professional ice cream scooper/ ice cream slammer down on big cold slab/ ice cream mixer upper on that big cold slab at Maggie Moos. Yesterday I got my syllabus for a course im taking with Rutgers, at this place in mount arlington. I have NOT been doing my greek summer reader...:-/ Okay...must start that today. i dont wanna lose all my greek knowledge. I also have not been praying. That is my biggest mistake of the summer. I can feel it. I need to pray. Because I'm not in Wheaton anymore, Toto, and old habits creep back in when I'm out here. I'm feeling prone to getting pissed off more quickly, and my language took a turn for the worst. And my laziness is just ridiculous.
Okay that was a super brief dabbling of the entire summer so far. I probably forgot a lot of worthy crap to be said. But i dont feel like thinking too hard. I havent been exercising that muscle a whole lot lately, and i wouldnt wanna go and pull it.