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I've hit a wall as far as motivation goes. I feel like stumbling into summertime. I don't know what I'm supposed to be focusing on each day. What's my driving force, ya know? To pull off the greatest Major/Minor combination possible? To...i dont know, i feel like I'm not relaxing enough and enjoying my days, but at the same time like I'm lazy and I'm not doing enough. Seems like a strange two feelings to have at the same time. I'm looking onto this coming summer and wanting to fill it up with all this stuff...maybe I should just do the minimum (job because mom demands it and i need to do something, greek work because i dont wanna lose my greek knowledge, and devos because...well...they're essential, those could be the two biggys each day, the rest just chill time). Then again I'm looking at possibly taking classes. All for the sake of my transcript and the classes I take. I dunno...bleh. Sometimes I can never bleh enough.