Holy mother of fuck!
Sorry about the subject title it seemed appropriate.
So where do I begin? Shit, what did I write about last?
Oh yes, I'm back. Have been, even though it don't feel like it because I've been making my life extremely busy with absolutely nothing... Which is sweet.
Eh, I've been up and down and around and back around lately. I can't seem to stay up or stay happy because then I have to think on things and they piss me off and then shit gets bad.
But then I have my woman or my friend(s) to help me out and things turn swell again.
So drinking for me is so god damn fun it's ridiculous. I know that sounds fun but it's not. I don't go to parties, fuck, I don't throw parties either (well save birthdays). So when I drink, it's with about three maybe four friends and we just sit around, maybe watch movies or listen to music and dance and act stupid. It's great fun. We watched Repo! the genetic opera (GET THIS FUCKING MOVIE NOW!!!!!!!!) and had a good time. But what makes it the best is that after we're done getting really toasted, it seems my casa is the place to crash out, so my friends will stay the night and the morning we go and all get breakfast and just spend the whole day driving and just having a blast. Honestly, it was about some of the best time I've had in a while. I actually took my camera out one time when we just cruised and we found an abandoned house by some train tracks and I took some awesome shots. Well I think they're awesome, which is rare. So yes, I have decided how my nights of drinking end the next day and this will probably become tradition with my friends.
Ah, so besides those good times, life has been kind of bland. Small fights here and there, issues all around, but through it all I seem to sneak in really amazing moments of happiness that keep a smile and a good mood about me which is amazing. I suppose what I've learned is to not give up a good moment for bad thoughts. I could be focusing on all this shit I have to deal with and all the problems I got but I'll glad put them on the shelf for one moment or one night of fun. Why not? If me brooding so much was doing so much good they problem wouldn't exist right? So I let them go for a second. But this is me, my problems will haunt me until I get some type of resolution.
So in conclusion. Life is manageable. Considering the state I'm usually in, this is great news. It's nice to even say it.
Anyway, I'm done, there is my update. Go me.
- D.
So where do I begin? Shit, what did I write about last?
Oh yes, I'm back. Have been, even though it don't feel like it because I've been making my life extremely busy with absolutely nothing... Which is sweet.
Eh, I've been up and down and around and back around lately. I can't seem to stay up or stay happy because then I have to think on things and they piss me off and then shit gets bad.
But then I have my woman or my friend(s) to help me out and things turn swell again.
So drinking for me is so god damn fun it's ridiculous. I know that sounds fun but it's not. I don't go to parties, fuck, I don't throw parties either (well save birthdays). So when I drink, it's with about three maybe four friends and we just sit around, maybe watch movies or listen to music and dance and act stupid. It's great fun. We watched Repo! the genetic opera (GET THIS FUCKING MOVIE NOW!!!!!!!!) and had a good time. But what makes it the best is that after we're done getting really toasted, it seems my casa is the place to crash out, so my friends will stay the night and the morning we go and all get breakfast and just spend the whole day driving and just having a blast. Honestly, it was about some of the best time I've had in a while. I actually took my camera out one time when we just cruised and we found an abandoned house by some train tracks and I took some awesome shots. Well I think they're awesome, which is rare. So yes, I have decided how my nights of drinking end the next day and this will probably become tradition with my friends.
Ah, so besides those good times, life has been kind of bland. Small fights here and there, issues all around, but through it all I seem to sneak in really amazing moments of happiness that keep a smile and a good mood about me which is amazing. I suppose what I've learned is to not give up a good moment for bad thoughts. I could be focusing on all this shit I have to deal with and all the problems I got but I'll glad put them on the shelf for one moment or one night of fun. Why not? If me brooding so much was doing so much good they problem wouldn't exist right? So I let them go for a second. But this is me, my problems will haunt me until I get some type of resolution.
So in conclusion. Life is manageable. Considering the state I'm usually in, this is great news. It's nice to even say it.
Anyway, I'm done, there is my update. Go me.
- D.