Moving on
Once again it's taken a while to think about this, as life's been hectic recently. Since writing last a lot has changed... I've moved out of my flat and am living in a youth hostel, saving money for a year. Living here was an odd decision, but I feel as though it's paid off. I've met a lot of people who have seen so much and had so many different experiences, they've opened my eyes to things I want.
So now I'm going to see other places, different continents and ways of life. With my parents settled and so happy in life, i feel safe in moving around.
Having said that I really missed the events this year, so I'm planning on going to a few but nothing serious as I hope to be getting on my way in twelve months time. I haven't seen enough of my friends this year although I've come to realise who they are much more clearly.
I'm looking forward to the next few weeks too as my parents are coming to visit, and we're heading for Skye. It's a trip that marks a new start for us all. It's been 10 years since my sister died, and this year made the final physical cut for us as we left Ascot forever. There is a strange sense but it's not sadness as we know we still share her memories and her influence on our lives. Now we've entered a whole new stage, ready for new experiences.
I have some ideas of where to go but I'm not entirely decided yet as certain places have age limits for working visa's. Stupid idea that...
I do know I'll only visit the US if I go to Canada, but no way do I want to live there.. we share to much of their culture for me to feel comfortable. Though that may change if I find somewhere I like .. like here. It was going to be short term but now I feel it's home, I can relax and do what I want with no more ties than I want. No bills, just rent and life. Work is something I do to earn money to do what and go where I want, I have no desire for status in it, or a lot of other mundane values. I can see their importance in my life but they don't hold more than the value of necessity to me. I guess it's a cop out on being unable to handle finances, but I prefer this way, it doesn't let me create debt and I don't end up with stuff I don't need.
Off for dinner now, have fun & enjoy
So now I'm going to see other places, different continents and ways of life. With my parents settled and so happy in life, i feel safe in moving around.
Having said that I really missed the events this year, so I'm planning on going to a few but nothing serious as I hope to be getting on my way in twelve months time. I haven't seen enough of my friends this year although I've come to realise who they are much more clearly.
I'm looking forward to the next few weeks too as my parents are coming to visit, and we're heading for Skye. It's a trip that marks a new start for us all. It's been 10 years since my sister died, and this year made the final physical cut for us as we left Ascot forever. There is a strange sense but it's not sadness as we know we still share her memories and her influence on our lives. Now we've entered a whole new stage, ready for new experiences.
I have some ideas of where to go but I'm not entirely decided yet as certain places have age limits for working visa's. Stupid idea that...
I do know I'll only visit the US if I go to Canada, but no way do I want to live there.. we share to much of their culture for me to feel comfortable. Though that may change if I find somewhere I like .. like here. It was going to be short term but now I feel it's home, I can relax and do what I want with no more ties than I want. No bills, just rent and life. Work is something I do to earn money to do what and go where I want, I have no desire for status in it, or a lot of other mundane values. I can see their importance in my life but they don't hold more than the value of necessity to me. I guess it's a cop out on being unable to handle finances, but I prefer this way, it doesn't let me create debt and I don't end up with stuff I don't need.
Off for dinner now, have fun & enjoy