Something Epic this way comes....
OK, so as some of you myspacers may have noticed if you look at the bloggy things, i might be moving back to Santa Cruz in december/January, in time for some second semester community college. And when i say might, it means that i really really want to. It just depends on a certain number of things i have to get straight in my life. And no, this isnt me moving because of a girl(although there are some miiiiiighty wonderful women up in those parts). This is straight up because i hate it here, and santa cruz would be my best option. My other two options would be phoenix or seattle, both of which are really far away, but i could make ends meet in either place. The reason why SC rises above in this case, is because it has a safety net. If i cant hack it, i have family and friends who are as good as family to help me out if that happens. Which it wont.
NOw as for the reason i hate it here, that is a might more complicated. Mainly, its the people. I hate the people here. Now everyonce and a while, i get a person like joey, or even shauny. BUt goddamn everyone else only thinks about themselves. The only fucking reason they have friends, is so that they can have friends. The only reason they date, is so that they can have a gf/bf. Its not a relationship, its fucking sumbiosis. Now, it works, and people thrive here, its just not for me. There is nothing pure here, and its affected me in a way i do not find pleasing. There is no love, there is only need. I just cant take the entire lack of innocence that this place has anymore. For instance, people here GIVE UP ON THEIR FRIENDS. the hell is that, i didnt even fucking know that was possible. People actually decide that their not friends anymore. I have not encountered ONE fucking instance where i meet a couple of friends who have been friends more than two years. Im not even shitting you on this. There is no loyalty, there is no anything that binds anyone to anyone. ijust cant understand it. i cant stand it either. Thats why i need to get out.
Things i need to do to get away:
1. Talk to my dad about it. He's the more open minded of my pair of parents. Illt alk to him in a few hours when he gets up(note time).
2. Get automobile. My dads promise to me was: stay in school, get a good job, i get you car. Im in school, and i have a steady job. So now i get a car.
3. Get my liscence. I have my permit, but as ive no doubt explained to many of you, there are reasons why i didnt get my liscence before now. So, im going to practice with number 2, and then hopefully get my liscence before the 29th, so as i can go on maybe a slight road trip for halloween.
4. Somewhere in there, i need to talk to my mother about it. i have 600-1 odds that shes gonna call me an immature dumb-ass and say no, im living with them til im twenty. Hence why im talking to my dad first.
5. Job Transfer. My current 20$ an hour job is great, and im really enjoying it. The particular company im working for (Granite Myers Rados) has a home base located in Watsonville, not even a twenty minute commute from santa cruz. Its not entirely necessary, but it would be a fucking god send if it were to work out and i could just transfer within the company.
6. School. Ill be graduating around December/January. Thats right about when the second semester for college starts. So my plan would be to attend Cabrillo Community college then, and get started there for a time. i definitely need to look into it, but yeah, thats what id be doing with my time.
7. Most importantly, probably. Residence. No matter how great my vagrant skills are, if im going to keep a job, and go to school, im going to need a bed to sleep in, and a roof to keep me warm. Now, my friend Max has offered me a place to live, but im not entirely sure how credible that is. Isaac's parents love me, and im almost positive that they would offer me a place to stay at least temporarily, if not indefinitely. My fathers best friend Chris offered me a place to live if ever i needed in santa cruz, which i can check if its still available, and my family has several other friends in that area who would most likely welcome me with open arms. And you never know, every once and a while your random friends will surprise you with 'hey, we've got a spare room that we're thinking of renting, and since my parents already love you(which all parents do), itd be perfect if you could come live with us!'. I swear that kinda shit has happened before.
So thats about it. I met a girl, and shes wonderful, and i could rant about her for days as i usually dobut ive decided that girls are not allowed on livejournal anymore, unless im dating them. So maybe i can tell you allllll about her in the near future(fingers crossed).
So in conclusion, if anyof you have any input, support, ideas, or if you feel the need to point out something painfully obvious that im missing, please tell me. Cause unlike every other fucking person in OC, i love you guys, and you mean the world to me.
NOw as for the reason i hate it here, that is a might more complicated. Mainly, its the people. I hate the people here. Now everyonce and a while, i get a person like joey, or even shauny. BUt goddamn everyone else only thinks about themselves. The only fucking reason they have friends, is so that they can have friends. The only reason they date, is so that they can have a gf/bf. Its not a relationship, its fucking sumbiosis. Now, it works, and people thrive here, its just not for me. There is nothing pure here, and its affected me in a way i do not find pleasing. There is no love, there is only need. I just cant take the entire lack of innocence that this place has anymore. For instance, people here GIVE UP ON THEIR FRIENDS. the hell is that, i didnt even fucking know that was possible. People actually decide that their not friends anymore. I have not encountered ONE fucking instance where i meet a couple of friends who have been friends more than two years. Im not even shitting you on this. There is no loyalty, there is no anything that binds anyone to anyone. ijust cant understand it. i cant stand it either. Thats why i need to get out.
Things i need to do to get away:
1. Talk to my dad about it. He's the more open minded of my pair of parents. Illt alk to him in a few hours when he gets up(note time).
2. Get automobile. My dads promise to me was: stay in school, get a good job, i get you car. Im in school, and i have a steady job. So now i get a car.
3. Get my liscence. I have my permit, but as ive no doubt explained to many of you, there are reasons why i didnt get my liscence before now. So, im going to practice with number 2, and then hopefully get my liscence before the 29th, so as i can go on maybe a slight road trip for halloween.
4. Somewhere in there, i need to talk to my mother about it. i have 600-1 odds that shes gonna call me an immature dumb-ass and say no, im living with them til im twenty. Hence why im talking to my dad first.
5. Job Transfer. My current 20$ an hour job is great, and im really enjoying it. The particular company im working for (Granite Myers Rados) has a home base located in Watsonville, not even a twenty minute commute from santa cruz. Its not entirely necessary, but it would be a fucking god send if it were to work out and i could just transfer within the company.
6. School. Ill be graduating around December/January. Thats right about when the second semester for college starts. So my plan would be to attend Cabrillo Community college then, and get started there for a time. i definitely need to look into it, but yeah, thats what id be doing with my time.
7. Most importantly, probably. Residence. No matter how great my vagrant skills are, if im going to keep a job, and go to school, im going to need a bed to sleep in, and a roof to keep me warm. Now, my friend Max has offered me a place to live, but im not entirely sure how credible that is. Isaac's parents love me, and im almost positive that they would offer me a place to stay at least temporarily, if not indefinitely. My fathers best friend Chris offered me a place to live if ever i needed in santa cruz, which i can check if its still available, and my family has several other friends in that area who would most likely welcome me with open arms. And you never know, every once and a while your random friends will surprise you with 'hey, we've got a spare room that we're thinking of renting, and since my parents already love you(which all parents do), itd be perfect if you could come live with us!'. I swear that kinda shit has happened before.
So thats about it. I met a girl, and shes wonderful, and i could rant about her for days as i usually dobut ive decided that girls are not allowed on livejournal anymore, unless im dating them. So maybe i can tell you allllll about her in the near future(fingers crossed).
So in conclusion, if anyof you have any input, support, ideas, or if you feel the need to point out something painfully obvious that im missing, please tell me. Cause unlike every other fucking person in OC, i love you guys, and you mean the world to me.