ugh
found out somthing very sobering today
great were the same
chances are im on the short end of the deal
i wonder, where the same noises made when we do in those conditions, as they did?
mental torment,
some times being "great" isnt enough, im selfish, terrible, angered, wonder what they (he) are/is thinking,
weather its ha im better than you, or they liked it better
if im so great what are they, makes me wonder if the conditions where diffrent if it would have made a diffrence
if i had, had the fortitude, i would have told them, but instead i trusted, prayed, and drank my self blind, before being unable to bare the mental torment of just the thought of what was/would go on in that room
the mind can be a beautiful thing,
But at times it can be given a though and it will run rampant through fields of paranoia, skitsofrenia, amnesia, hallucinations, and bad thoughts in general, weighing the possible outcomes of an action or the lack of one
on the way home tonight i yelled at the top of my lungs at nothing out side of my own psyche
some times i feel like my brain wants to kill my body and make it a zombie, an emotionless mass, not living, not dead, just consuming and moving
i kinda feel like a zombie right now but thats cause im hella tired =D
i miss you already Alaina <3
great were the same
chances are im on the short end of the deal
i wonder, where the same noises made when we do in those conditions, as they did?
mental torment,
some times being "great" isnt enough, im selfish, terrible, angered, wonder what they (he) are/is thinking,
weather its ha im better than you, or they liked it better
if im so great what are they, makes me wonder if the conditions where diffrent if it would have made a diffrence
if i had, had the fortitude, i would have told them, but instead i trusted, prayed, and drank my self blind, before being unable to bare the mental torment of just the thought of what was/would go on in that room
the mind can be a beautiful thing,
But at times it can be given a though and it will run rampant through fields of paranoia, skitsofrenia, amnesia, hallucinations, and bad thoughts in general, weighing the possible outcomes of an action or the lack of one
on the way home tonight i yelled at the top of my lungs at nothing out side of my own psyche
some times i feel like my brain wants to kill my body and make it a zombie, an emotionless mass, not living, not dead, just consuming and moving
i kinda feel like a zombie right now but thats cause im hella tired =D
i miss you already Alaina <3