dude, i wrote you a fucking novel!!!
yeeeeeeeeeeah, so i'm depressed. what else is new?
i've come to the conclusion that i don't want to be here anymore.
here = this state of mind.
i figure, that in order to escape it i need to do one (or more) of the following.
1. move. get the fuck out of this wasteland and start new.
2. fake amesia (sp?) and speak with a british accent, new personality, new cute little quirks, and start new.
3. strip everything of color or intrest from my room. spend time meditating and not on the things i own (sometime, they start to own you), and start new.
4. go on a killing spree (with obvious homage to 'kill bill') get rid of everyone who has caused anyone i love or myself pain. including a few boys who induldged themselves in a 'hump 'em and dump 'em situation'
(granted i LET them, but thats besides the point!). wipe the slate clean and start new.
5. get a sex change and start new. (nah...i love my vag-jay-jay!)
6. have a mad acid trip and wander into the desert to live as a nomad and start new.
notice a pattern?
yeah, starting new. it is more than likely too late to start new but my life feels so damn cluttered and sometimes i feel like i don't have anything going for me. i graduate in may. in a month, i'm done with highschool forever (unless i fail. god forbid)
sure, there will be somethings i miss.
ashley
megan
christine
mr. foster
speech and debate
tormenting austin
drama ....actually, i'm trying to get AWAY from that.
so yeah, but no offense guys, but the good doesn't balance out the bad. and i sorta want to just get out.
get out of where, you ask?
oh, i don't know.
move to new york, build a tree house in central park. become crazy.
get married to a rich old man and live off his money once he has died in beverly hills.
star in a sitcom about AIDS
kill myself.
become a nurse....in china
adopt a whole bunch of russian babies.
die.
get an addiction.
get preggers.
or maybe all of the above, all at once.
fuck, i don't know.
all i know is that i don't know nothin'
i got my car washed today.
i guess thats the first step to starting new... right?
i've come to the conclusion that i don't want to be here anymore.
here = this state of mind.
i figure, that in order to escape it i need to do one (or more) of the following.
1. move. get the fuck out of this wasteland and start new.
2. fake amesia (sp?) and speak with a british accent, new personality, new cute little quirks, and start new.
3. strip everything of color or intrest from my room. spend time meditating and not on the things i own (sometime, they start to own you), and start new.
4. go on a killing spree (with obvious homage to 'kill bill') get rid of everyone who has caused anyone i love or myself pain. including a few boys who induldged themselves in a 'hump 'em and dump 'em situation'
(granted i LET them, but thats besides the point!). wipe the slate clean and start new.
5. get a sex change and start new. (nah...i love my vag-jay-jay!)
6. have a mad acid trip and wander into the desert to live as a nomad and start new.
notice a pattern?
yeah, starting new. it is more than likely too late to start new but my life feels so damn cluttered and sometimes i feel like i don't have anything going for me. i graduate in may. in a month, i'm done with highschool forever (unless i fail. god forbid)
sure, there will be somethings i miss.
ashley
megan
christine
mr. foster
speech and debate
tormenting austin
drama ....actually, i'm trying to get AWAY from that.
so yeah, but no offense guys, but the good doesn't balance out the bad. and i sorta want to just get out.
get out of where, you ask?
oh, i don't know.
move to new york, build a tree house in central park. become crazy.
get married to a rich old man and live off his money once he has died in beverly hills.
star in a sitcom about AIDS
kill myself.
become a nurse....in china
adopt a whole bunch of russian babies.
die.
get an addiction.
get preggers.
or maybe all of the above, all at once.
fuck, i don't know.
all i know is that i don't know nothin'
i got my car washed today.
i guess thats the first step to starting new... right?