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Feel better, but I'm still fat. I hate the way I look in clothes! And naked of course! I feel better, but I haven't changed! Ok, it's only been a day, but I feel like I ought to LOOK thinner.
Oh, I now know where to shop if I want to be shamelessly hit upon; the 75th ave Wal-mart on Lower Buckeye at 7pm. I felt somewhat better about my appearance,

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We can totally encourage each other! I'm so miserable, I think I've been depressed since I started restricting and that's why I don't want to do anything but sleep. And look forward to sleeping.

What is your SW? Mine is disgustingly high right now, although I've lost a few since I started, I'm at 138 today.

Cw: 138
1st goal: 125
2nd goal: 119
We'll see from there. I think I'll look horrible if I went to the single digits. I think I would rather be like I am now than look like some of the pics I've seen. But then who knows what I'll feel like when i get to 119? When I got there before, I wanted to get down to 115. that's when i started getting scared, thinking it will never be enough. And now I'm fat.
I took before pics this time, I'm going to track my progress.

To tell you the truth, I'm nervous about meeting in person. I'm getting excited too, but you know, one thing that is so great about LJ, well for me anyway, is the anonymity it provides. Only one of my friends knows who i am on here and I know she won't judge me at all. I don't feel you will either, but I'm really nervous because people are never what you think they are online. I'm talking me, you are very open. I'm afraid I'll be disappointing. I have no expectations from you.
Sorry to go on, but I thought I would share. I think we could get along really well, especially since you guys are in to football in ANY capacity.
K, this is getting way too long. Sorry about that, and if I freaked you out, I apologize.