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So school starts soon, and im...anxious.
I want to do something else other than sitting in front of the comp talking on AIM, no matter how interesting it can be.
I can hardly wait for the work that is to come with the dreaded junior year. In a way, I'm looking forward to homework, having no free time, being busy, getting no sleep and so on. I can't wait to get back into myroutine of things again.
But there's a part of me that doesnt want to go back.
During the summer I can ignore, have no communication, not have to bother with certain people. I can get through the whole summer with just talking to some people twice and I am perfectly fine with that. It's easy for me to ignore people during the summer. Especially the ones who get on my nerves.
But once we got back to Choate, there is no avoiding them.
I don't want to see the people that piss me off every single day of the fucking week
I don't want to go back to "being fake" and "acting." I can't even call it that. It's just putting up with your stupid petty drama with a smile on my face and advice to give no matter how annoyed or angry or whatever I am at you. I'll be there for you when you need it.
I need Summertime to be released of fake smiles and whatnot. I need the summer to help me and to learn about who I am.
It's may be true that I don't want to have anything to do with you, but I'll never let you know; and you'll never find out. That is unless i tell you. I'm not ready to put on this "act" every day. I can't deal with these people, not yet.
Then again, there are some people that I can't wait to be around everyday. The people that make me feel better because I get to see them everyday. The sight of these people can immediately lift my spirits. But I think only 2 or 3 people only have this affect/effect (I can never get that right) on me. And of course, one of those people just happen to be in Rome. I'm really happy to have found these people. Just having someone who will never get on your nerves, to let you bitch and vent and even let you hit them to release anger, to give you advice, to lift you up when you are down is possibly the best feeling in the world. SP&Y
Congrats to anyone who just read that.
I want to do something else other than sitting in front of the comp talking on AIM, no matter how interesting it can be.
I can hardly wait for the work that is to come with the dreaded junior year. In a way, I'm looking forward to homework, having no free time, being busy, getting no sleep and so on. I can't wait to get back into myroutine of things again.
But there's a part of me that doesnt want to go back.
During the summer I can ignore, have no communication, not have to bother with certain people. I can get through the whole summer with just talking to some people twice and I am perfectly fine with that. It's easy for me to ignore people during the summer. Especially the ones who get on my nerves.
But once we got back to Choate, there is no avoiding them.
I don't want to see the people that piss me off every single day of the fucking week
I don't want to go back to "being fake" and "acting." I can't even call it that. It's just putting up with your stupid petty drama with a smile on my face and advice to give no matter how annoyed or angry or whatever I am at you. I'll be there for you when you need it.
I need Summertime to be released of fake smiles and whatnot. I need the summer to help me and to learn about who I am.
It's may be true that I don't want to have anything to do with you, but I'll never let you know; and you'll never find out. That is unless i tell you. I'm not ready to put on this "act" every day. I can't deal with these people, not yet.
Then again, there are some people that I can't wait to be around everyday. The people that make me feel better because I get to see them everyday. The sight of these people can immediately lift my spirits. But I think only 2 or 3 people only have this affect/effect (I can never get that right) on me. And of course, one of those people just happen to be in Rome. I'm really happy to have found these people. Just having someone who will never get on your nerves, to let you bitch and vent and even let you hit them to release anger, to give you advice, to lift you up when you are down is possibly the best feeling in the world. SP&Y
Congrats to anyone who just read that.