[[&i'll feel my world crumbling...i'll feel my life crumbling...]]
it's just been another day from hell.
i've been reading a lot, which i love. but i've just been in such crappy moods. maybe because it's 50 degrees outside and it's only mid-august. that could have some part in it. i'm just really anxious, really stressed out about a lot this week. but that's normal, right? i sure hope so. i have my parents troubles, my packing, school coming up, and it's just...blah. me and jon fight a lot and i hate that. NOT a perfect way to end the summer, and certainly not a perfect note to go back to school on. i'm just so scared about everything. i make such an effort in trying to hold my world up that it just crumbles. and i watch it fall apart. and i don't care to pick up the pieces, because it's too hard. i guess what jon says is right, most of the time.
i've come to the conclusion that i form obsessions simply because i want to get my mind off of all the stresses of my life. it's a pretty healthy way to do that, if i'm not mistaken. that's why i have been diving into so many books this summer. it definitely takes me away from some of the things that worry me.
well, that's all. it's late. i'm going to bed.
but this is my new favorite song.
MUSE- Falling Away with You
I can't remember when it was good,,
moments of happiness elude.
maybe I just misunderstood.
all of the love we left behind
watching our flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find
so i'll love whatever you become
forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun
and I'll feel my world crumbling
I'll feel my life crumbling
I'll feel my soul crumbling away
falling away
falling away with you
staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
I hope I won't forgot a thing
I wish to hold you close and pray
watching our fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same
and all of the love we threw away
and all of the hopes we've cherished fade
making the same mistakes again
making the same mistakes again
and I'll feel my world crumbling
I'll feel my life crumbling
I'll feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away
falling away with you
all of the love we left behind
watching our flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find.
memories I will never find,,
i've been reading a lot, which i love. but i've just been in such crappy moods. maybe because it's 50 degrees outside and it's only mid-august. that could have some part in it. i'm just really anxious, really stressed out about a lot this week. but that's normal, right? i sure hope so. i have my parents troubles, my packing, school coming up, and it's just...blah. me and jon fight a lot and i hate that. NOT a perfect way to end the summer, and certainly not a perfect note to go back to school on. i'm just so scared about everything. i make such an effort in trying to hold my world up that it just crumbles. and i watch it fall apart. and i don't care to pick up the pieces, because it's too hard. i guess what jon says is right, most of the time.
i've come to the conclusion that i form obsessions simply because i want to get my mind off of all the stresses of my life. it's a pretty healthy way to do that, if i'm not mistaken. that's why i have been diving into so many books this summer. it definitely takes me away from some of the things that worry me.
well, that's all. it's late. i'm going to bed.
but this is my new favorite song.
MUSE- Falling Away with You
I can't remember when it was good,,
moments of happiness elude.
maybe I just misunderstood.
all of the love we left behind
watching our flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find
so i'll love whatever you become
forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun
and I'll feel my world crumbling
I'll feel my life crumbling
I'll feel my soul crumbling away
falling away
falling away with you
staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
I hope I won't forgot a thing
I wish to hold you close and pray
watching our fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same
and all of the love we threw away
and all of the hopes we've cherished fade
making the same mistakes again
making the same mistakes again
and I'll feel my world crumbling
I'll feel my life crumbling
I'll feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away
falling away with you
all of the love we left behind
watching our flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find.
memories I will never find,,