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i am in such a horrable mood :(
well, i have been working since thursday. and today was the first day mom gave me a ride. the other times i walked. she dont care about me? i dont know. but yesterday and today at work was BUSY! like...we did what my brother does in a week in one day busy! uhhh....i am physically drained! my body just wants to give out. but i have 12-7 tommorrow. and if it is busy, i will of course stay a little bit to help. but uhhh...i ache so much...
now to go to emotional...my dad has been working on my car. he isnt charging me for it which is good. AND he is making up what i cant pay right now. of course i am going to pay back. but still really good. well, he still isnt done...which sucks ass. i was to go out tonight and see jamie after her dance. yea, she had a highschool dance today. blah. i hope she had a great time...really, i do. but just one of those times it sucks to have to work and not be there w/ her. so i was already a little stressed on that. so when i get home and shower and crap, she calls. asking if i am coming. say no cause still no car. she...i guess she got upset. she complained about my dad. nothing i can do. when i said 'i love u'...i got a 'yea'....which is never good. then she hurried and got off the phone. i feel like shit and i truly didnt do anything wrong this time :'(. and i really needed to see her to for her to help me feel a little bit better. god damn it. and i have family fighting to add to this w/ this weather and random shit here and there. so emotionaly...i am drained also.
right now...all i want to do is lay down and cry myself to sleep. cause that is how bad i feel right now. make jokes...i could care less right now. kick a guy when he is down. so...i am going to go grab a hand full of tissue and be done w/ my night before i have something else bad happen :'(
well, i have been working since thursday. and today was the first day mom gave me a ride. the other times i walked. she dont care about me? i dont know. but yesterday and today at work was BUSY! like...we did what my brother does in a week in one day busy! uhhh....i am physically drained! my body just wants to give out. but i have 12-7 tommorrow. and if it is busy, i will of course stay a little bit to help. but uhhh...i ache so much...
now to go to emotional...my dad has been working on my car. he isnt charging me for it which is good. AND he is making up what i cant pay right now. of course i am going to pay back. but still really good. well, he still isnt done...which sucks ass. i was to go out tonight and see jamie after her dance. yea, she had a highschool dance today. blah. i hope she had a great time...really, i do. but just one of those times it sucks to have to work and not be there w/ her. so i was already a little stressed on that. so when i get home and shower and crap, she calls. asking if i am coming. say no cause still no car. she...i guess she got upset. she complained about my dad. nothing i can do. when i said 'i love u'...i got a 'yea'....which is never good. then she hurried and got off the phone. i feel like shit and i truly didnt do anything wrong this time :'(. and i really needed to see her to for her to help me feel a little bit better. god damn it. and i have family fighting to add to this w/ this weather and random shit here and there. so emotionaly...i am drained also.
right now...all i want to do is lay down and cry myself to sleep. cause that is how bad i feel right now. make jokes...i could care less right now. kick a guy when he is down. so...i am going to go grab a hand full of tissue and be done w/ my night before i have something else bad happen :'(