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[nolecatherine]

so it is wierd that i am writing this because i know that no one has probably ever read my journal and probably never will. but i need to vent. i have never wanted to hurt someone so much. i don't know if my feelings are just hurt so tremendously or if i am just pissed beyond belief. i just want to put my head in a pillow and suffocate. it sounds wierd but that is how i feel. i dont know why the world is against me all of a sudden. i didn't think i did anything wrong. and it is so hard to pretend to be happy all the fucking time. it is impossible and has gotten me nowhere. i don't want to be all emo on everyone but i can't stop crying. i want someone to tell me everything is going to be ok. i need someone to. andrew is a douche bag. i don't know if i spelt that right but he is. and his girlfriend is a bitch. they can both go to hell. this is bringing out my true spirit. how fucking awesome.

so how about some updates on my fucked up life.

fell for a couple guys but i am over them now.

kissed a boy once or 6 times. but now iam kind of upset i did. he is a sex maniac and because i wouldnt give him that, it went nowhere. yet we are still great friends. note to self. don't hook up with best guy friends.

went to mae concert. saw sparky there. he rocks my socks. he is super. and i like his pants.

i still hate that i fell for my best guy friend.....again. god i am a fucking idiot.

i straightened my hair. but i don't think i can cut it. i can't do that.

i am not looking for a boyfriend. i see what my two best friends dating have become and i want to go puke.
fuck them
fuck best buy tallahassee. i hate these people.
fuck and love!