Friends forever
I discover in the course of RP-ing - what better way to self-discovery than creating completely different avatars? - that I am terrible at keeping friends. Making and keeping friends, rather. Not that the knowledge is completely new to me, but as I count off my fingers on the friends I have remained closed to over the years, I realise just how bad my track record is.
Friends I have lost because I am not fantastic at making small talk and the "emotional exchanges" that are necessary to grease a relationship.
Friends I have grown apart from because of distance.
Friends I have outgrown and moved on from
But more spectacularly, friends I have lost because of one single exchange that I always regret. Which is better: keep a volatile temper, fly off the handle and let your friends get used to it, or learn to bottle it well enough, suppress your emotions, and blow up one day, creating an indelible mark on your friendships? I made few friends in my younger years because of the former and I kept few friends thereafter because of the latter.
Human relations are too difficult to manage, too tiresome to understand. Easier to just live in alternate universes.
Friends I have lost because I am not fantastic at making small talk and the "emotional exchanges" that are necessary to grease a relationship.
Friends I have grown apart from because of distance.
Friends I have outgrown and moved on from
But more spectacularly, friends I have lost because of one single exchange that I always regret. Which is better: keep a volatile temper, fly off the handle and let your friends get used to it, or learn to bottle it well enough, suppress your emotions, and blow up one day, creating an indelible mark on your friendships? I made few friends in my younger years because of the former and I kept few friends thereafter because of the latter.
Human relations are too difficult to manage, too tiresome to understand. Easier to just live in alternate universes.