suckass days

[nolcha]

Well, I am bored shitless. I could have gone to some heavy metal show, though I'm not certain how heavy or metal is would be, but I just didn't feel like going by myself and dealing with a crowd of sweaty richmonders. So I am at home with the Sampson dog bored out of my mind and left with my unhappy thoughts. I spoke with my "little sister" ,whom I haven't spoken with for 5 years, and that was nice. I've just been in such a shitass mood. I feel like I've done nothing but tread water for the past 3 or so years. I just can't get my shit together...and I feel so alone. My family shit just always gets to me... I just don't get them. And now my mom has taken it upon herself to give my aunt (who shunned me) my address so she can write me and tell me all about how wrong I am and why she won't speak to me any more. I just find it so amusing that all these years she hasn't given 2 flying fucks about me, but now she all of a sudden gives a shit!? Who cares!? Besides I thought it was not for us to judge...however according to my mother there are some scriptures and my aunt is right. FUCKING GREAT! WANT A MEDAL!? As far as I'm concerned it is none of their goddamn business what I do. As if I'm just laying in the street naked and spread eagle waiting for the next great fuck! And even if I was!!? WHO GIVES A SHIT!? It fucking annoys the shit out of me. But enough of that for now...although it seems to be a reocurring theme for me...but on to other things.
Hopefully now that I have an actual art space I should start doing some actual artwork...maybe even sew some shit! I need to motivate myself to get a new job...possibly a silversmith apprenticeship!? that would be aaaawweeesome. Doesn't life seem a bit pointless sometimes? What are we even doing here...pass me a drink (jk all the way! ;) I've put in a request for an application to VCU...we shall see what happens there. I don't really have anything else good to say. I miss my friends... I miss my life.