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Up early this morning. It is 7:23 am and i been up an hour. I have had alot going on this past 2 weeks. Robbie is in Reno with my dad and my uncle Terry. They flew out last Saturday to meet up with uncle Lee to go hunting out in the mountains. I leave to go to Arizona this coming Saturday to stay with my Grandmother for a week. I can't wait, i could use the dry air. This humidity does bad stuff to my sinuses.
My grandmother donated her car to the kidney foundation when it broke, so she has no car, but i think i remember her saying that when my mom and my sister stayed there with her she rented one and let them drive it (she always said she would give up her drivers liscence when she turned 80!) Despite that, I am really hoping to be able to get into a health club to work out and take some Spinning classes while i am there. I am about to put myself on a new program. I am really concerned about being a good role model for my family and my clients once i am able to start working again. (I will get into the work situation in a minute and what has been holding me back.) I want to use this vacation to my advantage. Besides seeing my grandmother whom i miss very dearly, I want to use it to get back into the swing of things.
My health has been an obstacle lately. Aside from having quite a few endometriosis complications in the past 3 months, I found out last week that another reason i am having problems is because during an exam my doctor also found a cyst. Those 2 things along with the nausea, vomiting, and gastrointestinal upset have been causing me alot of the pain and discomfort i have been having that have ultimately kept me from continuing with my competition training AGAIN! Money has been an issue as well, because since all these things cropped up right after I quit Cross Gates, I haven't been well enough to hold a normal job-much less train people since I wasn't even able to train myself. However, I did get approved for my lupron shot and started on it last week, so so far, all i have had is some insomnia and fatigue (go figure that combination!) and a little bit of anxiety here and there, things are going alright. Haven't seen any major changes to my health just yet, but i was told it would take about a month to 2 months for the shot to have had the time to shut everything down as far as my reproductive cycle. So, I am just hoping for the best and staying positive-after all, I heard that the depo-provera shot is alot more poisonous to the system than the Lupron, so if i was on depo for 2 years, Lupron should be a peice of cake without the funky weight gain.
This week i started back in the gym. I feel good but very very sore. I like it though. I am ready to get back full force. I may not be able to train with Kat right now, but I'll be damned if i am going to waste my God-given potential, and I'll be damned if i am going to let this obstacle knock me down permanently rather than rise to meet the challenge of it. Until i can get back from AZ, onto a liability insurance plan, I can't start working, but i have been researching liability insurance plans so that when i do get back i can tell my dad i found one and i am ready to send off for it and start my personal training business. I am ready to train my body competitively, even if i can't actually compete until i get financially straight again. Just because i can't work with a trainer right now, I can sure as hell train myself, force myself to be the best that i can be, and not accept anything less from myself than 100%. I can drop bad habits, eat better, and increase my lifespan, as well as working out with the same intensity as i did when i first went into competition almost 5 years ago. It will be tough, it will be grueling, but it will be worth it to go into my role as a wife, mother, and committed personal trainer with my head held high knowing that i am walking the talk. It will be worth it to feel as good about myself as i did 5 years ago at 15% body fat (and below), solid, rock hard muscle. I want to be supermom...The mom that can do anything...The mom that can get up at four am to work out so she can get up and get the kids off to school, then go to work doing what she loves and be there to get the kids off the bus, help them with homework, cook dinner, work out again, keep the house in order, and be able to balance it all nicely without sacrificing my goals to look and feel my best. I want to give people something to think about damnit, make them realize that with a little determination anything is possible. I wanna be Supermom-the mom that can deal with anything and stand tall and strong, unwaivering in the face of adversity.
That's it for now, off to the gym to hit a class.
My grandmother donated her car to the kidney foundation when it broke, so she has no car, but i think i remember her saying that when my mom and my sister stayed there with her she rented one and let them drive it (she always said she would give up her drivers liscence when she turned 80!) Despite that, I am really hoping to be able to get into a health club to work out and take some Spinning classes while i am there. I am about to put myself on a new program. I am really concerned about being a good role model for my family and my clients once i am able to start working again. (I will get into the work situation in a minute and what has been holding me back.) I want to use this vacation to my advantage. Besides seeing my grandmother whom i miss very dearly, I want to use it to get back into the swing of things.
My health has been an obstacle lately. Aside from having quite a few endometriosis complications in the past 3 months, I found out last week that another reason i am having problems is because during an exam my doctor also found a cyst. Those 2 things along with the nausea, vomiting, and gastrointestinal upset have been causing me alot of the pain and discomfort i have been having that have ultimately kept me from continuing with my competition training AGAIN! Money has been an issue as well, because since all these things cropped up right after I quit Cross Gates, I haven't been well enough to hold a normal job-much less train people since I wasn't even able to train myself. However, I did get approved for my lupron shot and started on it last week, so so far, all i have had is some insomnia and fatigue (go figure that combination!) and a little bit of anxiety here and there, things are going alright. Haven't seen any major changes to my health just yet, but i was told it would take about a month to 2 months for the shot to have had the time to shut everything down as far as my reproductive cycle. So, I am just hoping for the best and staying positive-after all, I heard that the depo-provera shot is alot more poisonous to the system than the Lupron, so if i was on depo for 2 years, Lupron should be a peice of cake without the funky weight gain.
This week i started back in the gym. I feel good but very very sore. I like it though. I am ready to get back full force. I may not be able to train with Kat right now, but I'll be damned if i am going to waste my God-given potential, and I'll be damned if i am going to let this obstacle knock me down permanently rather than rise to meet the challenge of it. Until i can get back from AZ, onto a liability insurance plan, I can't start working, but i have been researching liability insurance plans so that when i do get back i can tell my dad i found one and i am ready to send off for it and start my personal training business. I am ready to train my body competitively, even if i can't actually compete until i get financially straight again. Just because i can't work with a trainer right now, I can sure as hell train myself, force myself to be the best that i can be, and not accept anything less from myself than 100%. I can drop bad habits, eat better, and increase my lifespan, as well as working out with the same intensity as i did when i first went into competition almost 5 years ago. It will be tough, it will be grueling, but it will be worth it to go into my role as a wife, mother, and committed personal trainer with my head held high knowing that i am walking the talk. It will be worth it to feel as good about myself as i did 5 years ago at 15% body fat (and below), solid, rock hard muscle. I want to be supermom...The mom that can do anything...The mom that can get up at four am to work out so she can get up and get the kids off to school, then go to work doing what she loves and be there to get the kids off the bus, help them with homework, cook dinner, work out again, keep the house in order, and be able to balance it all nicely without sacrificing my goals to look and feel my best. I want to give people something to think about damnit, make them realize that with a little determination anything is possible. I wanna be Supermom-the mom that can deal with anything and stand tall and strong, unwaivering in the face of adversity.
That's it for now, off to the gym to hit a class.