new thangs
yeah im nice...so i coped that new i730 (finally im fuckin wit a new phone piece after 300 yrs). But just to mess with us, they fucked up our whole shit. We wanted to port my old number to nextel, while my moms number stays with sprint. We didn't really convey this to the guy helping us out, and the guy didn't really pay attention to the fact that their were two numbers on the bill, so we ended up porting my moms #. Its a weird situation that needs to get fixed because its really bothering me. I want my old number back bad...AHHHHH but i have a definite new Direct Connect #(174*131188*20...call me up) and my plan is definitely hot. But thats as far as that goes. So in like a couple of days i hope to still be on the 203-507-5488 tip, but if not, ill inform ya'll otherwise.
More important thangs. Lately i have been fightin with a certain someone. These fights have been buggin me in a very undeniably confusing way. I used to have feelings for this person, which makes the situation more sticky. I dunno. Maybe im at fault for alot of things. Maybe i am actually picking these fights out myself. But lets just pose a scenario here. Lets say you see your friend. This person is just your friend, nothing more and nothing less, and you both know this (or at least one of you knows this). This person tells you that he/she is leaving for spring break. Would you give that person a lil hug goodbye? Is that too much to do? Or should I have been so expecting of such a gesture? This situation is not hypothetical as u can probably gather, but should she have given me a hug or am i making more of an issue that it is? Basically we fought from arguing about that inncident. We have been arguing about little things like this for a while now. We are not exactly on the terms we were on a while before. Its like im seeing a completely different side of this girl. I don't know why she is showing me this side. I don't know why she is often throwing me the cold shoulder. I just wonder how much of this i can take. I actually value her as a friend, and it would suck if we discontinued our friendship because of these fights. Is it wrong if i feel disrespected to say something, especially to her? I am recognizing that she seems to think of me as a raging jealous person. I am in no way jealous of anyone. I am the antithesis of anyone who is jealous. But she keeps throwing the fact that i used to like her into our fights, and i hate that because it doesn't make things fair. We are in college for christ's sake. If im fighting with someone, im not going to draw other situations or factors into the fight. I will say that it has rose some questions in my mind. I won't lie, there were times where i have been bitter because she would hang with other peeps and wouldn't hang with me. I still understood that she wasn't feeling me on that level and i was comfortable with that. I was just upset at the fact that i couldn't hang with her at that moment. I never carried it along. I knew from the get that nothing would actually develop. I have told you this, and I have definitely told her these same things. So i don't understand what is the problem. I guess there are alot of things we need to discuss in a mature and enclosed environment. Lets hope I can even reach that point.
I want to send a shout out to samantha lynn cordova. Lately I've been gettin in fights with some peeps who I consider are awefully close to me. My man danny, in particular. And Samantha really showed me what it is to just stick by somebody no matter what, and be genuinely friendly. She also was with me when I was upset with my mans for some shit he was doing that i thought was disrespectful. She helped me realize that even though things are rough, he's still my boy and thats all that counts. She was with me while I was fighting with this girl. It boggles my mind how she stays with me. I have been pretty fucked up to her in the past, and somehow we are close friend right now. I wish her all the best in life. Whoever she ends up being married to, he will be a lucky individual (a lucky black individual).
Thats it for today peeps, tell me if im wrong or if im right. I know i didn't really give THAT much perspective, but insight is appreciated. BTW if you are a certain someone reading this, we should talk and squash this whole thing, because i don't wanna fight anymore.
More important thangs. Lately i have been fightin with a certain someone. These fights have been buggin me in a very undeniably confusing way. I used to have feelings for this person, which makes the situation more sticky. I dunno. Maybe im at fault for alot of things. Maybe i am actually picking these fights out myself. But lets just pose a scenario here. Lets say you see your friend. This person is just your friend, nothing more and nothing less, and you both know this (or at least one of you knows this). This person tells you that he/she is leaving for spring break. Would you give that person a lil hug goodbye? Is that too much to do? Or should I have been so expecting of such a gesture? This situation is not hypothetical as u can probably gather, but should she have given me a hug or am i making more of an issue that it is? Basically we fought from arguing about that inncident. We have been arguing about little things like this for a while now. We are not exactly on the terms we were on a while before. Its like im seeing a completely different side of this girl. I don't know why she is showing me this side. I don't know why she is often throwing me the cold shoulder. I just wonder how much of this i can take. I actually value her as a friend, and it would suck if we discontinued our friendship because of these fights. Is it wrong if i feel disrespected to say something, especially to her? I am recognizing that she seems to think of me as a raging jealous person. I am in no way jealous of anyone. I am the antithesis of anyone who is jealous. But she keeps throwing the fact that i used to like her into our fights, and i hate that because it doesn't make things fair. We are in college for christ's sake. If im fighting with someone, im not going to draw other situations or factors into the fight. I will say that it has rose some questions in my mind. I won't lie, there were times where i have been bitter because she would hang with other peeps and wouldn't hang with me. I still understood that she wasn't feeling me on that level and i was comfortable with that. I was just upset at the fact that i couldn't hang with her at that moment. I never carried it along. I knew from the get that nothing would actually develop. I have told you this, and I have definitely told her these same things. So i don't understand what is the problem. I guess there are alot of things we need to discuss in a mature and enclosed environment. Lets hope I can even reach that point.
I want to send a shout out to samantha lynn cordova. Lately I've been gettin in fights with some peeps who I consider are awefully close to me. My man danny, in particular. And Samantha really showed me what it is to just stick by somebody no matter what, and be genuinely friendly. She also was with me when I was upset with my mans for some shit he was doing that i thought was disrespectful. She helped me realize that even though things are rough, he's still my boy and thats all that counts. She was with me while I was fighting with this girl. It boggles my mind how she stays with me. I have been pretty fucked up to her in the past, and somehow we are close friend right now. I wish her all the best in life. Whoever she ends up being married to, he will be a lucky individual (a lucky black individual).
Thats it for today peeps, tell me if im wrong or if im right. I know i didn't really give THAT much perspective, but insight is appreciated. BTW if you are a certain someone reading this, we should talk and squash this whole thing, because i don't wanna fight anymore.