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Lots and Lots has been going on lately. Last week I withdrew from all of my classes, so I'm not longer going to school. Everyone asks why and I really don't have just one answer. I just was really unhappy. First I was unhappy at Montclair and thought maybe I just miss nate, or maybe I just don't like this school. But this whole semester I've been home, and with Nate and I was just as unhappy as before. I really just need to figure out what I want and it's going to take time.
I feel like I use to have so much direction, and I knew exactly what i wanted out of life and exactly how i was going to get to that point, and now I have absolutely no clue.
On another note I got some really awful news from a really good friend of mine yesterday. She was pregnant with her second baby and in about her 10th week, so she went for her first ultrasound and the doctor told her she was pregnant with twins, and they were conjoined at the chest. There was only one heart so they would more likely than not die further along into the pregnancy and it could put a lot of stress on her heart too, so they had to go in and terminate it. I just feel so awful, and can't imagine what she must be going through right now. The scary thing is that this happens to 1 out of every 100,000 pregnancies. I suppose my life could be worse right now when put into perspective. I'm going to see her in March and can't wait.
I feel like I use to have so much direction, and I knew exactly what i wanted out of life and exactly how i was going to get to that point, and now I have absolutely no clue.
On another note I got some really awful news from a really good friend of mine yesterday. She was pregnant with her second baby and in about her 10th week, so she went for her first ultrasound and the doctor told her she was pregnant with twins, and they were conjoined at the chest. There was only one heart so they would more likely than not die further along into the pregnancy and it could put a lot of stress on her heart too, so they had to go in and terminate it. I just feel so awful, and can't imagine what she must be going through right now. The scary thing is that this happens to 1 out of every 100,000 pregnancies. I suppose my life could be worse right now when put into perspective. I'm going to see her in March and can't wait.