I pretty much suck with words
So for being the "talkative" person (or so im told), I dont think I really ever talk. Does that make any sense? I just had my best friend say that I dont tell her stuff, and I really thought that I did. Hmm. I know I am really cautious with who I tell my shit to....but I guess I dont at all. For being someone that talks alot, it just seems like i'm blowing hot air or something. When I get right down to it, I dont think I really tell anyone anything. I try, but it just seems like they are being absent minded or something, so I just make some joke and quit while I'm ahead. I think thats why I like art so much because I suck with words. I wish I was normal and could talk about stuff.....it just never seems like there is a right time for anything. I'm surprised I havent gone completely metal with keeping everything bottled up inside. I guess if people dont share with me I dont share with them. I dont go anywhere I'm not invited.....so if someone wont open up to me, I guess I dont to them either. What the hell is wrong with me? What is it that I'm not telling people that makes them say "you dont tell me stuff, you dont tell anyone anything." What is it that I'm not saying as to classify it as "stuff?" What is it that I clearly am lacking at in the friendship department. I'm just the "planner-friend" or the "little one." I apparently am not that friend you tell things to. And I'm not the kinda person you would live with either. I better make some good shit this year in studio, otherwise, how will I ever express myself....ever. I have ranted way too long about something I cant even say out loud.