exhale.....
... and tap in rhythm on the keyboard. the sound from the tv the only distraction. that and the chirp of the cats. I feel i have overeaten crap and overdrank piss. i feel dirty, battered, and rusty. in fact i know i am all of the above. i want to smoke but something vain in me believes it isn't good for me. the rest of me knows better. my life has been one big car crash without an impact. physically speaking. the negative acceleration designed to stop my heart and eject my brains out of my eye sockets. apparently i didn't brake hard enough. i am stopped and alive. trapped in the wreckage for as long as i remember.