Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah...shutup.
Ack, I'm in such an odd mood right now. Not quite sure what mood it exactly is. I guess a wee bit sad and a pinch of depressed. Why? I know why but I'd rather not admit to it. I cried when I seen a pic of my dad that was posted online by my uncle today. I've never seen it before. It broke my heart. I wish he was here. Sigh. First time I cried about him in months. Then I got sad about Jeff and I. Why, I dunno. I guess when I am sad about my dad, I get sad about Jeff. Goes hand in hand I suppose. Most days I'm over the kid, just a few days here and there I really miss him. Ohhhh well. I've moved on I guess. I've been so busy lately that I don't have time to think about myself, let alone some kid that I mean nothing to. Eh, shit happens. I started my own shop on etsy.com I'm pretty stoked. Sold one item already, I'm going to ship it tomorrow. I bought some shipping items today. I'm excited. Not sure what this is going to do for me, but I suppose it will keep me focused on something positive. There has been a lot of negative things going on lately and I would just like some form of release, a positive one. I miss being able to talk to someone about stuff and telling someone I love them and I miss them. I miss being held and the sweet kisses. Man, do I long for those some nights. But most days...I can care less. Too complicated and I'm happier when I don't have to please someone else or live up to their standards. I just miss my best friend. Just today and just right now. Tomorrow I'll go back to thinking you never existed, just like it should be.....