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This post is will be all over the place because I'll just be typing what comes to mind.
I'm putting all of my hopes in this gamble that everything will work out this time. Even though I've been tripping all along, falling into despair, getting lost, all I could do is hope for the better to come. This year has been very exhausting for me. I've never broke down so many times that I could almost lose myself and think of ending my life. But I didn't because I'm a coward like that. If this opportunity will embrace me then I think I could finally break all of the things that I've been bounding myself with. I'll be forced to live independently and I hope it'll make me a tougher individual. There are a lot of uncertainties (it will always be there) but I'll try to face everything head on. Hopefully I'd get a definite answer by this week and I'll lay out my plans by then.
I'm putting all of my hopes in this gamble that everything will work out this time. Even though I've been tripping all along, falling into despair, getting lost, all I could do is hope for the better to come. This year has been very exhausting for me. I've never broke down so many times that I could almost lose myself and think of ending my life. But I didn't because I'm a coward like that. If this opportunity will embrace me then I think I could finally break all of the things that I've been bounding myself with. I'll be forced to live independently and I hope it'll make me a tougher individual. There are a lot of uncertainties (it will always be there) but I'll try to face everything head on. Hopefully I'd get a definite answer by this week and I'll lay out my plans by then.