Aug 15, 2005 20:20
con mucho ron.
if it were to be described as a piece of music in two languages. as I imagine. I don't like being angry. there is too much force in my anger, and it is both hard to dispell and destructive.
so, my mom and I had a fight. it's been awhile. and I now remember exactly what it's like to be completely misunderstood, misrepresented, and to be involved in something so utterly stupid and hurtful as an argument that boils down to "I can't stand you anymore" followed by a list of reasons why that are not all true and which are not exclusive to me--in fact, describe her better at the moment than me. (in my opinion, of course)
after taking the better part of five minutes to convince myself that breaking the window with the frying pan was not what I really wanted to do, I put on some Stravinsky and mom took a very reluctant Pup on a walk.
planning a backpack trip with two good friends should be fun and exciting, not a test to prove I am a capable, even, god-forbid, responsible or rationally thinking person. parents are so difficult. well, parent, I suppose. are they easier in pairs?