rock on, apple
which is worse: to feel like the big fish in a big pond, or to realize that you're just another little guppy in a lake full of bigger guppies who can design a poster better than you can?
... i think you see where i'm going with this.
i sat in on jp's 296 design class today, and... well, SHIT. there's a helluva lot of talent in there. fucking TONS of potential. and if they're somewhat lacking in technical skill, well, you can be taught skill. anyone can learn to use photoshop and illustrator and indesign and turn out some very high quality imagery... but will it be interesting? dunno.
i guess i just want a bit of confidence. confidence, please, yes, i would like some. probably the reason i haven't posted any of that de-loused stuff is that, in retrospect, it still needs a good deal of work. and i hope to give it that work over, oh, christmas, or thanksgiving, or, y'know, whenever i happen to have about two weeks to relax. sadly, however, um... no time. i think perhaps the most frustrating thing of all of this is that i feel like i'm churning out crap because i don't have the time to make it really gorgeous. or, y'know, as gorgeous as a molly piece can be. sure, i like the tattooy thing... it's cool. and i like some of the other work i've come up with, but... well... moo.
i guess i don't have much to say but that i'm tired and i'd love to take a year-long sabatical to work on design before the gallery show in may.
of course, i don't get to do that.
i complain too much... but i'm frustrated. frustrated and tired, tired of not getting to work in my area of emphasis, instead i have to do all of these other classes in addition, and, and, and... gah!
*sigh*
i'll be okay. just need a beer and maybe... a smoke. i dunno. i should do more work on my project today... i'm just so damned exhausted. hoy.