A Cancer in my Brain : Just Let Me Go Please !!! (Another me, Hyde, yasu and The Cancer)
Friday, Saturday, .... I feel Lonely everyday ....
have i told you about the different of Glamorous Sky Hyde and Yasu's version for me? personally i love Hyde version, the english version, even i put both of them on my phone playlist .Yasu seem's like always ask me to sing along with him but Hyde just make me relax, enjoy my bus trip in the morning while counting days with him.
Every morning i have what i call my morning bus moment alone, a time where i just sit on the bus, enjoy my one hour bus riding, there's nobody but me and the songs on my MP3. That's my fave morning everyday before i start my activity, dealing with all of things that i have to deal everyday. So i really hate when people call me or text me in the morning.
But this morning one stranger phone number call me, i dunno who is he, but he keeps tellin me if he is my old friend, and how arrogant i am because i didn't recognice his voice. heee my old friend? .... he said his name is Edo, i don't have friend named Edo, the one and only Edo i know is Edoardo Palomo the telenovela star. Where did he get my number from? ... and then i found out if my mom is the one who gave my phone number to him because he call me at home, ...
yasu : don't worry i am not gonna call you ...
noi : good then ...
oh God, why did she do that? she shouldn't gave my number to stranger, and i also hate talking on phone if not something important. and i even wondering why did people love to call and talk by phone in a very long time, .... what are they talking btw? ...
I also never talk to other passenger on bus, because i don't like to talk to stranger. And i didn't, how do i avoid to talk to stanger on bus where there's so many stanger?
with earphone, .... that's simple ne? i just put my earphone on and turn my music on max volume so i can hear nothing, ... just like Furare Kibun De Rock n Roll , earphone and music always help us, ... Furare Kibun de ROCK ‘N’ ROLL is a full spirit song and hard to sing .. , well actually this is a sad song or desperate?, that tell us the feeling of being rejected.
“Furare kibun nara ROCK’N'ROLL heddofon no VOLUME wo agete, oreteikarete kata de kaze kitte MIDNIGHT (if you’re feeling rejected, rock ‘n’ roll Turn up the volume on your headphones And strut along in a twisted, crazy way midnight)"
i did that (put earphones and turn the volume into max, my mom keepsaying that wears earphones everyday make me deaf) to not only when ife el rejected but i did that everyday just to ignore everybody or somebody that i think is anoying, this is what i did so nobody talks to me on bus. I hate i f i had to have some chit chat with stranger on bus ….
even Toyotomi Hideyoshi always said : Be good with your neighbor, prepare your future “ one of my fave qoutes from him, the word neighbor here not only means literally your neighbor but also everybody surround you. but i hate to be kind with others, especially stranger …. well i am a weird person ialways had a negative think about stranger …. like what if they kidnap me? ....
yasu : kidnap you? ....
noi : yes, who knows Ya_San ...
yasu : who want to do that, nobody want to kidnap you btw
noi : why?
yasu : because you eat a lot, they gonna spent more money .... *laugh*
noi : heeee .....
i listen to this song at the morning on bus and believe it or not (upto you) makes my day. hey … i am ready for today …!!! when i heard the piano rhytm … hei it’s 80′s song that remain me one of opening song from western serial that i always watch when i on highschool. is it The ATeam, McGyver, Moonlighting, Miami Vice …. i dunno i can’t remember what excactly ….. So the point is earphone is a very good things for ignoring ...
Back to Glamorous Sky, let's start counting days and today is Friday. It supposed to be the last day i work. but i have to finish my works, it supposed to be finish today, but because the damn birocracy and some stuffs. they just delayed my works.
So what i did today is just waiting and waiting i slept again in my desk, then woke up, listening to my MP3, put my head on my dest just watching yasu and his beautiful shoulders on my PC's screen saver. damn i still have a lot of works to do. and if tomorrow i haven't finish, that means i have to go to office again on Sunday? .... OMG Sunday @office and just 2 days before Ied? .... nooooo ...
i have some business with 2 of my office mate. It just screwed this year. in this business we put our money there, and the profit share is every year before Ied holiday like today. OMG this year the profit is just down about 20% than last year, what the hell is that? ... we still have to pay our loan from bank, because when we start this business we go borrowed some cash from bank. Huff .... Okay then i better think about that after holiday. .
This is my fault, i took too many project this year because the money is so good ..... *material girl*, i even brooke my promise to myself to have a lot of fun and less work this year. but what happen is i keep working like crazy and then i got sick. A lot of project and my side job, i mean i feel like i am standing on two boat, my one legs is in one boat and the other one is in the other boat. it's too much for me, but thank God i still can handle that, we still got the profit even less 20% than last year, ... that's better than BEP (Break Even Point) or broke ...
Doing nothing at office make today feels longer than it used to be, at home i open my PC because today is August 26th they gonna update Acid Black Cherry Official Site for Shangri La single and after lost again in the mu_mo on line shop finally i order the Fan Club edition. For this 5 continous single i decided to buy the CD + DVD for Limited Edition and CD only for Fan Club Edition
see the bonus is gonna be the same like PISTOL single, a tissue box, ... well then, if i buy they gonna give tissue box for all 5 next single then eventually i am gonna have 5 ABC tissue boxes? .... hoooo that's brilliant ..!!!!
not just that, when i open my LJ Friend Page , i saw someone post on larc_en_ciel community : L'Arc- en-Ciel World Tour Special Ticket Information , OMG OMG i can't believe this they just start to sell the ticket , and yes i just registered my email there and when they reply me with
Your email address has been added.
www.Larc-en-Ciel.com
it just make my day, ..... btw something weird happen start yesterday, i just can't open my Facebook or Twitter using my PC at night, but everything is okay at day .... what the hell is happening? did Facebook and Twitter start to hate me ? .... it can't be like that, i can't be on line at office right now, i only open my PC at night , ... just like last year and start my long slepless night. ...
Ied is coming 3 days again, demo i don't like Ied not only because the family gathering like i said before, but Ied means i am gonna see him, him who? .... not yasu, but my neighbor the Ai no Baka man, he is gonna going home with his wife. I don't wanna see him or have to talk with him, .... it's not thats i hate to see him happy now but i think that's because i still have him in my heart, brain , and yeah in me ....
yasu : The ai no Baka man, again ....? that's boring noi_chan ...
noi : i am sorry Ya_san, but i just can't get him out of my head .....
yasu : just get over with him , ... i am boring now ....
noi : i dunno .....
i really wanna foget about him, demo it so hard, it is not that simple like forgeting something .... this one is just so deep in me. i mean he is my first love, and i spent my whole life loving him, ... and even he is already leave me and married, he is still in my heart. i know it's not fair, if i am his wife i am not gonna like if there's a woman have a feeling to my husband, so i have to forget him ...
but i can't it just come over and over again like a moonsoon rain in Calcuta, and how Daigo is gonna kiss Akihide on Real Love , i dunno what should i do he 's just like a cancer in my brain, .... cancer? maybe i should go to Dr. Wilson than House .... What i feel is a very2 deep dissapoint , when loving someone and found out that he didn't/never love me just like the way i love him, ... he only see me as his little sister ....
imouto? .... nooo i don't wanna be his imouto, .... zettai ni dame ....!!!!!!
But thank God, again today i have my period, so that means i don't have to go to mosque, and i don't have to meet him there, meet him in the cemetery or going to his house with my mom, Why? because his father is the elder of my neghborhood so it's kind a like tradition where everyone is gonna go to his house to say Ied Mubarak to his father and all his family .....
God, please help me, erase him from my brain that's all i want now .....
yasu : are you finish?
noi : hmmm ... nee Ya_san, ..
yasu : what?
noi : I don't wanna be your Imouto ....
yasu : then who are you noi_chan?
noi : I am your fangirl ....
yasu : oke, now go to sleep ....!!!
~owari~
have i told you about the different of Glamorous Sky Hyde and Yasu's version for me? personally i love Hyde version, the english version, even i put both of them on my phone playlist .Yasu seem's like always ask me to sing along with him but Hyde just make me relax, enjoy my bus trip in the morning while counting days with him.
Every morning i have what i call my morning bus moment alone, a time where i just sit on the bus, enjoy my one hour bus riding, there's nobody but me and the songs on my MP3. That's my fave morning everyday before i start my activity, dealing with all of things that i have to deal everyday. So i really hate when people call me or text me in the morning.
But this morning one stranger phone number call me, i dunno who is he, but he keeps tellin me if he is my old friend, and how arrogant i am because i didn't recognice his voice. heee my old friend? .... he said his name is Edo, i don't have friend named Edo, the one and only Edo i know is Edoardo Palomo the telenovela star. Where did he get my number from? ... and then i found out if my mom is the one who gave my phone number to him because he call me at home, ...
yasu : don't worry i am not gonna call you ...
noi : good then ...
oh God, why did she do that? she shouldn't gave my number to stranger, and i also hate talking on phone if not something important. and i even wondering why did people love to call and talk by phone in a very long time, .... what are they talking btw? ...
I also never talk to other passenger on bus, because i don't like to talk to stranger. And i didn't, how do i avoid to talk to stanger on bus where there's so many stanger?
with earphone, .... that's simple ne? i just put my earphone on and turn my music on max volume so i can hear nothing, ... just like Furare Kibun De Rock n Roll , earphone and music always help us, ... Furare Kibun de ROCK ‘N’ ROLL is a full spirit song and hard to sing .. , well actually this is a sad song or desperate?, that tell us the feeling of being rejected.
“Furare kibun nara ROCK’N'ROLL heddofon no VOLUME wo agete, oreteikarete kata de kaze kitte MIDNIGHT (if you’re feeling rejected, rock ‘n’ roll Turn up the volume on your headphones And strut along in a twisted, crazy way midnight)"
i did that (put earphones and turn the volume into max, my mom keepsaying that wears earphones everyday make me deaf) to not only when ife el rejected but i did that everyday just to ignore everybody or somebody that i think is anoying, this is what i did so nobody talks to me on bus. I hate i f i had to have some chit chat with stranger on bus ….
even Toyotomi Hideyoshi always said : Be good with your neighbor, prepare your future “ one of my fave qoutes from him, the word neighbor here not only means literally your neighbor but also everybody surround you. but i hate to be kind with others, especially stranger …. well i am a weird person ialways had a negative think about stranger …. like what if they kidnap me? ....
yasu : kidnap you? ....
noi : yes, who knows Ya_San ...
yasu : who want to do that, nobody want to kidnap you btw
noi : why?
yasu : because you eat a lot, they gonna spent more money .... *laugh*
noi : heeee .....
i listen to this song at the morning on bus and believe it or not (upto you) makes my day. hey … i am ready for today …!!! when i heard the piano rhytm … hei it’s 80′s song that remain me one of opening song from western serial that i always watch when i on highschool. is it The ATeam, McGyver, Moonlighting, Miami Vice …. i dunno i can’t remember what excactly ….. So the point is earphone is a very good things for ignoring ...
Back to Glamorous Sky, let's start counting days and today is Friday. It supposed to be the last day i work. but i have to finish my works, it supposed to be finish today, but because the damn birocracy and some stuffs. they just delayed my works.
So what i did today is just waiting and waiting i slept again in my desk, then woke up, listening to my MP3, put my head on my dest just watching yasu and his beautiful shoulders on my PC's screen saver. damn i still have a lot of works to do. and if tomorrow i haven't finish, that means i have to go to office again on Sunday? .... OMG Sunday @office and just 2 days before Ied? .... nooooo ...
i have some business with 2 of my office mate. It just screwed this year. in this business we put our money there, and the profit share is every year before Ied holiday like today. OMG this year the profit is just down about 20% than last year, what the hell is that? ... we still have to pay our loan from bank, because when we start this business we go borrowed some cash from bank. Huff .... Okay then i better think about that after holiday. .
This is my fault, i took too many project this year because the money is so good ..... *material girl*, i even brooke my promise to myself to have a lot of fun and less work this year. but what happen is i keep working like crazy and then i got sick. A lot of project and my side job, i mean i feel like i am standing on two boat, my one legs is in one boat and the other one is in the other boat. it's too much for me, but thank God i still can handle that, we still got the profit even less 20% than last year, ... that's better than BEP (Break Even Point) or broke ...
Doing nothing at office make today feels longer than it used to be, at home i open my PC because today is August 26th they gonna update Acid Black Cherry Official Site for Shangri La single and after lost again in the mu_mo on line shop finally i order the Fan Club edition. For this 5 continous single i decided to buy the CD + DVD for Limited Edition and CD only for Fan Club Edition
see the bonus is gonna be the same like PISTOL single, a tissue box, ... well then, if i buy they gonna give tissue box for all 5 next single then eventually i am gonna have 5 ABC tissue boxes? .... hoooo that's brilliant ..!!!!
not just that, when i open my LJ Friend Page , i saw someone post on larc_en_ciel community : L'Arc- en-Ciel World Tour Special Ticket Information , OMG OMG i can't believe this they just start to sell the ticket , and yes i just registered my email there and when they reply me with
Your email address has been added.
www.Larc-en-Ciel.com
it just make my day, ..... btw something weird happen start yesterday, i just can't open my Facebook or Twitter using my PC at night, but everything is okay at day .... what the hell is happening? did Facebook and Twitter start to hate me ? .... it can't be like that, i can't be on line at office right now, i only open my PC at night , ... just like last year and start my long slepless night. ...
Ied is coming 3 days again, demo i don't like Ied not only because the family gathering like i said before, but Ied means i am gonna see him, him who? .... not yasu, but my neighbor the Ai no Baka man, he is gonna going home with his wife. I don't wanna see him or have to talk with him, .... it's not thats i hate to see him happy now but i think that's because i still have him in my heart, brain , and yeah in me ....
yasu : The ai no Baka man, again ....? that's boring noi_chan ...
noi : i am sorry Ya_san, but i just can't get him out of my head .....
yasu : just get over with him , ... i am boring now ....
noi : i dunno .....
i really wanna foget about him, demo it so hard, it is not that simple like forgeting something .... this one is just so deep in me. i mean he is my first love, and i spent my whole life loving him, ... and even he is already leave me and married, he is still in my heart. i know it's not fair, if i am his wife i am not gonna like if there's a woman have a feeling to my husband, so i have to forget him ...
but i can't it just come over and over again like a moonsoon rain in Calcuta, and how Daigo is gonna kiss Akihide on Real Love , i dunno what should i do he 's just like a cancer in my brain, .... cancer? maybe i should go to Dr. Wilson than House .... What i feel is a very2 deep dissapoint , when loving someone and found out that he didn't/never love me just like the way i love him, ... he only see me as his little sister ....
imouto? .... nooo i don't wanna be his imouto, .... zettai ni dame ....!!!!!!
But thank God, again today i have my period, so that means i don't have to go to mosque, and i don't have to meet him there, meet him in the cemetery or going to his house with my mom, Why? because his father is the elder of my neghborhood so it's kind a like tradition where everyone is gonna go to his house to say Ied Mubarak to his father and all his family .....
God, please help me, erase him from my brain that's all i want now .....
yasu : are you finish?
noi : hmmm ... nee Ya_san, ..
yasu : what?
noi : I don't wanna be your Imouto ....
yasu : then who are you noi_chan?
noi : I am your fangirl ....
yasu : oke, now go to sleep ....!!!
~owari~