After Listening Post : Acid Black Cherry : L～エル～ Album ... (Another me, yasu and The Liar)
so after i checked ,
apparently last month i only write one post eh, no wonder i feel so bad ne. This feeling about me not being able to let go all of this lots of things in my mind is a total hell inside of me.
Especially when all those things started to talk and then yell at each other and drives me crazy.
so rather that let myself driven crazy (omo, do i make myself sounds like a car ... ?) suppose it's will be better if i posted in here and believe me everyone, i have a LOTs of things in my mind naw.
So there you are everyone, another long boring rambling post again from me ... !!!!
yasu : not again noi_chan, a rambling post, really?? ...
noi : yeah, really
yasu : i mean, there's my new album ne, at least do make a review or somethin ...
noi : ah ya, but i need to be better eh
yasu : then go somewhere else, not here
noi : hello, this is my blog eh honey ....
so these days, i've been very busy.
In fact, i'd say this year is gonna be the busiest year that i ever have until now. Every day, i don't have much time to do anything else at office. And when i get home i am just too tired to do anything but jump in my bed and go to sleep.
And the fangirling things that i really love to do or tryin to make me feel better by write something in here, is something really hard to do now.
i also need more time to listen (read : listen carefully) yasu's new album that i've been waiting for so long ...
L～エル～
i just can't believe if me, somebody who wanted to hear that so much until ....
i tweeted that shameless tweet request to my friend using that demi persahabatan kita (Eng : for the shake of our friendship ) asked my friend to buy me 2 songs (7 Colors and エストエム) from iTunes.
2 songs from L～エル～ Album that i really want to hear ...
But then, i ended with had no time to sit, listen and tryin to understand the whole album
yasu : look who is suddenly really busy now ...
noi : well ...
yasu : even for me
noi : i am so sorry eh, but ...
So don't ask about the Heart to Heart Translation things that i always do whenever yasu release a new single or album while waiting until Kiku post her translation to check my mistakes, because for me her translation is the best.
This time,i didn't do it. All i do is like a very lazy student, i just read Kiku's translation while listening each of the song one by one.
So just like how i always keep the biggest meatball on my meatball soup or the cherry on top of my black forest to eat last, i wanted to do the same thing with this album. I am not sayin i am gonna wait until i get my copy to hear it,
NO WAY, i can't stand not to hear it .... !!!
i am talking about to listen and feel this album on the perfect time and finally managed to listen to this whole album, and if this something i wrote can be included into something that people say as a review, then say it.
but rather to call it as a review, i think i am gonna call it as My After listening L～エル～ feelings ...
who am i to write a review anyway, after all i am just a fangirl who only know how to post yasu's images then sayin how kawaii, mind blowing, etc etc and annoyed people with all Acid Black Cherry stuffs i have on Facebook.
so there you are everyone ...
~ My After listening L～エル～ feelings ...
i will try to talk about what i feel when and after i listen to each songs, even though i didn't listen all the songs deeply because i haven't get all the lyrics yet. So this My After listening L～エル～ feelings is 100% listening only, the lyrics not included.
Not yet, i still wait until Kiku finished all her translations.
01. Round & Round
it's a nice song, pretty catchy to be an opening song for this album.
Blimey, but on my first time reading the song title i already imagine how the Live Performances on next L～エル～ Tour must be on a round stage like QED Live.
and what i love from this song is how yasu close it sweet and nicely with this English lyrics ...
I'm still waiting for you
though we broke up, my heart is still with you...
You may deny but I still love you,
I will wait forever my love...
for you...
even yeah,
i do still have this dilemma whenever yasu singing a song with English lyrics. The same problem about no matter how i forced myself to hear it and get what he said without reading the lyrics.
But still, i failed again for this album.
yasu : come on noi_chan, you say you'll stop ...
noi : do what ...
yasu : that you just did ...
noi : i just say i failed eh, not complaining ...
next is ....
02. liar or LIAR ?
this 2nd song is something i will say another great song from yasu again,
Especially YUKI's guitar on the beginning,
then continued with some trio of yasu's vocal, YUKI's guitar and Junji's drum sounds that in my mind they're like run after each other fast, as fast as Forrest Gump running back to the jungle, somewhere in Vietnam over and over to find his best friend Bubba.
it's fast but still enjoyable and totally AWESOME ... !!!
Even there's something on the lyrics that's become our talks tonight after reading Kiku's translation for this song complete with her very good English advice
It's just a litte thing that maybe for some people will ignore it, but for people who have English and the grammar for their living, i understand how that's kinda hard to ignore.
So last night, there was changing question, from
Liar or LIAR ?
into
You are a liar or You're a liar
eh yasu ...???
yasu : you noi_chan, you're the liar ....
noi : オモ ヤッさん、that sounds like Darcy >_<
yasu : who ...??
noi : well, now you better brace yourself because your fans cannot stand to be your grammar police ...
yasu : then you're the Inspector ?
But still, Liar or LIAR? is one of my fave from this album and now i wonder yasu must have lots of good songs like this inside his brain on line to be release isn't he ...???
03.エストエム
i'd say エストエム is brilliant ... !!!
it blows my mind since last Christmast eve Secret Meeting when yasu allow us to listen to some seconds preview of this song i already imagine how this song will bring a Massive Headbang on Live.
And when i listen to the full version, my mind blown away again aaand not only that, the lyrics eh. I am shivering now just by reading the translation.
Especially this part ...
I don’t really care for that pain that brings tears to your eyes
But I’m telling you that sometimes it can be kind
It’s because I’m good for nothing that my sadist needs me
if the sadist and the masochist treat one another it’s a labyrinth that leads to pleasure ...
OMG
OMG
now who needs Mr. Grey's 50 shades if with this エストエム, yasu already gave me some of his 50 shades ...???
Call me Greed please,
but by listening to this song suddenly i wonder is it OK if i want the full version PV of エストエム for the last Coming Soon ... !!! on Lーエルー Album Special Site ...???
i am talking about this sexth Coming Soon ... !!
04.君がいない、あの日から…
05.Lーエルー
06.Greed Greed Greed
Because the Mp3 player on my phone is arraged alphabetic like that, so how i listen is also alphabetically from エストエム, Greed Greed Greed and INCUBUS, that somehow i enjoy it really much and i finally get the point of this song,
Greed Greed Greed
yasu : then do tell me ....
noi : It is forever OK to be Greed right ...
yasu : noi_chan, that again ...?
noi : ....
07.7 colors
for this song, i knew that some Acid Black Cherry fans who also into L'arc_en_Ciel fans will say this song remind them to L'arc_en_Ciel の C'est La Vie.
I'd say from the drum beat maybe .... *wink*
08.〜Le Chat Noir〜
09.黒猫〜Adult Black Cat〜
10.versus G
This song,
i think if i go to see this song Live i might get the same effect i got like when i see Greed Greed Live last year at Budokan. Not complaining, but i said lots of
Eeeh yasu, what the hell you are sayiinn .... ????
then i remember that time, suddenly i wanna cry and just wanted to go home and see my mother.
11.眠れぬ夜
this song is song that i less like, it sounds like it was forced into. You know like when somebody put a bucket of roses into a wrong vase. Something sounds weird, especially at the ending, not a good ending tho .
When i listen to this song i only think about this song is similar to what song ...???
12.INCUBUS
13.Loves
14.& you
PS : you can read all the lyrics translation in Kiku's Tumblr in ---> here
That's all My After listening L～エル～ feelings, not complete yet i know.
Maybe i will fix and edit later when i receive my copies. I think now i am the only one fans who haven't see the Live, MC Selection and Documentary, even i did DL_ed the Live at office but ...
I still need to DL the MC Selection and Documentary first. I have to wait when there's no Jodha Akbar mass streaming again. So i can have my fast internet connection again.
for this yasu's Love Allbum, i give 8.5 stars.
Yes it's good and for the 3rd time i say here how i am not complaining, but still i have to say ...
If this album is a Black Forrest, i'd say yasu forgot to put a cherry on top of it.
next is this ....
~ Whatsoever Update from me
this one is for
5th Season 『 Shangri-la 』 PHOTOBOOK : Miyazaki
B-PASS 2015年3月号: Akihide
B-PASS 2015年3月号 : VAMPS
Enjoii .... !!!!
and keep the worst for the last. next is ....
~ This Whatsoever Story that I need to let go
I did say how i want to be like ULTRON as one of my Resolution for 2015.
Free and happy (from how it he destroyed all things,i think ULTRON is a very happy machine ne ... ) like The ULTRON with no strings attached.
But apparently no strings attached is really hard to do, even for this Inspector Himura who choose to stay inside her private Limbo rather than do or involved into whatsoever things that a normal person will ....
yasu : why ...??
noi : because Inspector Himura think people will never understand her ...
yasu : not even him ...??
noi : NOBODY .... !!! *cryin*
so this story is gonna be another same story about how Inspector Himura failed again for how many times in this relationship shit involved things that SHERLOCK will call as a Human Error (read : love).
so the story starts lyin in the dark with someone new .... ~ ♪♫
noi : i ... ~~ ♬♬
yasu : i told you ne noi_chan, don't sing
noi : but it will make this more dramatic ne
yasu : oh please Drama Queen, STOP .... !!!
noi : なんで 。。。？
back to the story ne, ....
so the story start when Inspector Himura worked on a case together with consultant from another company. Let's just call him as Mr. Darcy (yeah, the same Darcy on Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice).
They worked very well together during the case because this Mr. Darcy is a very lovely and polite man with amazing ability to make very funny jokes that make them get along well together. And then when the case is over, Mr. Darcy had to back to his country.
About 2 weeks after that, Comissioner Viyay (Inspector Himura's boss) told her if Mr. Darcy asked for her Facebook and Comissioner Viyay gave it to him.
And then things that started from work continued into a nice an long chat on Facebook and calling each other on the weekend.
yasu : ええ ちょっとね、noi_chan ...
noi : ん 。。。？
yasu : can you just use you, Darcy, your boss and me ...?
noi : but i am tryin to say is a story ne not a diary ...
yasu : to make it simple ne because we all know this all about you ...
Well then ....
Since my father died, there's a BIG change happened to Comissioner Viyay.
From my fave boss who never care whether i am gonna marry soon or choose to stay single this year into a Probie Matchmaker joining all those muggles around me by nonstop sayin
What about him ...??
he is cute, isn't he Moi?
That guy from tax askin me about you ... etc etc
when we go somewhere and meet a single guy. Now i kinda miss how he always answer she is still busy with his works whenever there's somebody asked me this question
why you're still single?
I think you are too cute to be single ...
that's a question that a single guy will ask to a single woman. And Comissioner Viyay used to be very good about find me answer for that. But now, he's just non-stop annoyed me with all his matchmaking questions ...
and one day he called me and told me if he gave my Facebook acc to Darcy with a note how i must to accept his friend request.
I said OK boss ...!!! to him even it was a bit surpris for me when i found out what he gave to Darcy is my fangirling full of yasu Facebook acc, not the personal one that less yasu.
and then Darcy and i, we're friends on Facebook and yes, i was a bit worry about this because with that fangirling full of yasu Facebook, i know i will make his feeds full of yasu and all my rambling things about i want this, that and many more.
but ...
Something about Darcy that totally different from other guy i ever now is how he also askin about my works and family doing on everytime we talk. In fact, that's one of the reason i say yes to him about tryin to be more involved and attached my self to him aand his message on Valentine's Day,
OMG that was beyond sweet and i totally blown away by him ... !!!
until one day, when he finally asked
Who is that man on your Facebook cover?
Why you have so many photos of him ?
is he your boyfriend or ex ...???
.... etc etc that ended with how i am not being honest to him about this.
I knew that time will come, when he will ask me about this and i have to answer and tell him about this whatsoever hallucinationship and obsession i have with yasu that honestly i don't like to talk about with him.
It's because when Comissioner Viyay introduced me to him, he didn't mention about this hallucinationship and obsession i have with a man named yasu, so i never talk about yasu with him.
I admit, i am somebody who will talk about yasu non stop both on my Facebook or real life. I make all my friend bored with my yasu's talk everyday at office but not with him.
In fact, he is the only person that i don't talk about yasu with because he isn't a fanboy.
so when he finally asked me who is yasu? i dunno what to say, i just say he is a singer and i am a BIG fan of him.
That's all ne, i think adding about your weird obsession about somebody to a person that you are fallin in with is not a good idea, especially when you both are still only 4 months involving each other.
maybe i am a Liar,
But only to my mother, because with that Drama Queen, lying is something very easy for me to do.
for example,
~ when my mother ask me to do something that i don't wanna do i will say i am too tired or i have something else to do. or ...
~ when i don't want to go to school, i pretend to be sick and stay on bed, or
~ whenever i want something and she wont buy it for me, i will pretend to stop eating until she will buy it for me
So when he said how i am not being honest with him that for me, it feels like he was sayin
You're a Liar ... !!!
to me, and eh God that's really hurts,
because see, my eyes maybe not bright as yasu, but i never lie to him. He was the one who never ask ne. I mean if he never ask, do i have to explain everything about me, at this very beginning time of us?
NO WAY i am not gonna do that
I don't like people to know much about me, because there's so many things about me that i still want to keep it for myself and NOBODY should know at this moment
For example, i don't even know who is my real father ne. So do i have to tell him about this, about how nobody i am who was being abandoned by her father because her father couldn't deal with a new baby and lost a wife at the same time?
NO WAY, i am not gonna do that eh ...
Still having him sayin you're a liar ... !!! to me in my mind is hurt ne, indeed it is. As you now there's one BIG problem for a Liar ne. That BIG problem is how it is really hurt when a Liar tellin the truth but nobody believe it.
i wish he said it wrongly like yasu on Liar or LIAR? song, sayin it as ...
you are Liar. I'm tired ... !!!
so i can answer him,
no, i am Noi.
My name is Noi, not Liar .... !!!!! eeh he he he he *got a massive kick from MEGATRON*
yasu : not funny noi_chan ...
noi : see how another fail keep comin to me ...
yasu : then what next, do i have to prepare another super glue?
noi : i dunno ...
i think what i need to do now is pull myself out of this whatsoever things i have with him before this feeling i have for him getting deeper than now. I just don't want to get hurt again. I know it will be hurt more if i stop when i get deeper feelin about him than now.
so i need to STOP naw ...
I will cry maybe 4, 5 days maybe one weeks but then i am sure i am gonna be fine ne. After all i believe the idea about how a girl is a bunny.
A downtown bunny who will never get tired to run after their love.
Even though sometimes their eyes got red after cryin like hell for their failure for love, but after a while that bunny will run again all over the cities ...
yasu : and ...
noi : find another love ...
yasu : so now you're a bunny ...
noi : at this moment, yes
yasu : and a Liar ... ??
noi : no, i am not. He just never ask ...
~owari~
apparently last month i only write one post eh, no wonder i feel so bad ne. This feeling about me not being able to let go all of this lots of things in my mind is a total hell inside of me.
Especially when all those things started to talk and then yell at each other and drives me crazy.
so rather that let myself driven crazy (omo, do i make myself sounds like a car ... ?) suppose it's will be better if i posted in here and believe me everyone, i have a LOTs of things in my mind naw.
So there you are everyone, another long boring rambling post again from me ... !!!!
yasu : not again noi_chan, a rambling post, really?? ...
noi : yeah, really
yasu : i mean, there's my new album ne, at least do make a review or somethin ...
noi : ah ya, but i need to be better eh
yasu : then go somewhere else, not here
noi : hello, this is my blog eh honey ....
so these days, i've been very busy.
In fact, i'd say this year is gonna be the busiest year that i ever have until now. Every day, i don't have much time to do anything else at office. And when i get home i am just too tired to do anything but jump in my bed and go to sleep.
And the fangirling things that i really love to do or tryin to make me feel better by write something in here, is something really hard to do now.
i also need more time to listen (read : listen carefully) yasu's new album that i've been waiting for so long ...
L～エル～
i just can't believe if me, somebody who wanted to hear that so much until ....
i tweeted that shameless tweet request to my friend using that demi persahabatan kita (Eng : for the shake of our friendship ) asked my friend to buy me 2 songs (7 Colors and エストエム) from iTunes.
2 songs from L～エル～ Album that i really want to hear ...
But then, i ended with had no time to sit, listen and tryin to understand the whole album
yasu : look who is suddenly really busy now ...
noi : well ...
yasu : even for me
noi : i am so sorry eh, but ...
So don't ask about the Heart to Heart Translation things that i always do whenever yasu release a new single or album while waiting until Kiku post her translation to check my mistakes, because for me her translation is the best.
This time,i didn't do it. All i do is like a very lazy student, i just read Kiku's translation while listening each of the song one by one.
So just like how i always keep the biggest meatball on my meatball soup or the cherry on top of my black forest to eat last, i wanted to do the same thing with this album. I am not sayin i am gonna wait until i get my copy to hear it,
NO WAY, i can't stand not to hear it .... !!!
i am talking about to listen and feel this album on the perfect time and finally managed to listen to this whole album, and if this something i wrote can be included into something that people say as a review, then say it.
but rather to call it as a review, i think i am gonna call it as My After listening L～エル～ feelings ...
who am i to write a review anyway, after all i am just a fangirl who only know how to post yasu's images then sayin how kawaii, mind blowing, etc etc and annoyed people with all Acid Black Cherry stuffs i have on Facebook.
so there you are everyone ...
~ My After listening L～エル～ feelings ...
i will try to talk about what i feel when and after i listen to each songs, even though i didn't listen all the songs deeply because i haven't get all the lyrics yet. So this My After listening L～エル～ feelings is 100% listening only, the lyrics not included.
Not yet, i still wait until Kiku finished all her translations.
01. Round & Round
it's a nice song, pretty catchy to be an opening song for this album.
Blimey, but on my first time reading the song title i already imagine how the Live Performances on next L～エル～ Tour must be on a round stage like QED Live.
and what i love from this song is how yasu close it sweet and nicely with this English lyrics ...
I'm still waiting for you
though we broke up, my heart is still with you...
You may deny but I still love you,
I will wait forever my love...
for you...
even yeah,
i do still have this dilemma whenever yasu singing a song with English lyrics. The same problem about no matter how i forced myself to hear it and get what he said without reading the lyrics.
But still, i failed again for this album.
yasu : come on noi_chan, you say you'll stop ...
noi : do what ...
yasu : that you just did ...
noi : i just say i failed eh, not complaining ...
next is ....
02. liar or LIAR ?
this 2nd song is something i will say another great song from yasu again,
Especially YUKI's guitar on the beginning,
then continued with some trio of yasu's vocal, YUKI's guitar and Junji's drum sounds that in my mind they're like run after each other fast, as fast as Forrest Gump running back to the jungle, somewhere in Vietnam over and over to find his best friend Bubba.
it's fast but still enjoyable and totally AWESOME ... !!!
Even there's something on the lyrics that's become our talks tonight after reading Kiku's translation for this song complete with her very good English advice
It's just a litte thing that maybe for some people will ignore it, but for people who have English and the grammar for their living, i understand how that's kinda hard to ignore.
So last night, there was changing question, from
Liar or LIAR ?
into
You are a liar or You're a liar
eh yasu ...???
yasu : you noi_chan, you're the liar ....
noi : オモ ヤッさん、that sounds like Darcy >_<
yasu : who ...??
noi : well, now you better brace yourself because your fans cannot stand to be your grammar police ...
yasu : then you're the Inspector ?
But still, Liar or LIAR? is one of my fave from this album and now i wonder yasu must have lots of good songs like this inside his brain on line to be release isn't he ...???
03.エストエム
i'd say エストエム is brilliant ... !!!
it blows my mind since last Christmast eve Secret Meeting when yasu allow us to listen to some seconds preview of this song i already imagine how this song will bring a Massive Headbang on Live.
And when i listen to the full version, my mind blown away again aaand not only that, the lyrics eh. I am shivering now just by reading the translation.
Especially this part ...
I don’t really care for that pain that brings tears to your eyes
But I’m telling you that sometimes it can be kind
It’s because I’m good for nothing that my sadist needs me
if the sadist and the masochist treat one another it’s a labyrinth that leads to pleasure ...
OMG
OMG
now who needs Mr. Grey's 50 shades if with this エストエム, yasu already gave me some of his 50 shades ...???
Call me Greed please,
but by listening to this song suddenly i wonder is it OK if i want the full version PV of エストエム for the last Coming Soon ... !!! on Lーエルー Album Special Site ...???
i am talking about this sexth Coming Soon ... !!
04.君がいない、あの日から…
05.Lーエルー
06.Greed Greed Greed
Because the Mp3 player on my phone is arraged alphabetic like that, so how i listen is also alphabetically from エストエム, Greed Greed Greed and INCUBUS, that somehow i enjoy it really much and i finally get the point of this song,
Greed Greed Greed
yasu : then do tell me ....
noi : It is forever OK to be Greed right ...
yasu : noi_chan, that again ...?
noi : ....
07.7 colors
for this song, i knew that some Acid Black Cherry fans who also into L'arc_en_Ciel fans will say this song remind them to L'arc_en_Ciel の C'est La Vie.
I'd say from the drum beat maybe .... *wink*
08.〜Le Chat Noir〜
09.黒猫〜Adult Black Cat〜
10.versus G
This song,
i think if i go to see this song Live i might get the same effect i got like when i see Greed Greed Live last year at Budokan. Not complaining, but i said lots of
Eeeh yasu, what the hell you are sayiinn .... ????
then i remember that time, suddenly i wanna cry and just wanted to go home and see my mother.
11.眠れぬ夜
this song is song that i less like, it sounds like it was forced into. You know like when somebody put a bucket of roses into a wrong vase. Something sounds weird, especially at the ending, not a good ending tho .
When i listen to this song i only think about this song is similar to what song ...???
12.INCUBUS
13.Loves
14.& you
PS : you can read all the lyrics translation in Kiku's Tumblr in ---> here
That's all My After listening L～エル～ feelings, not complete yet i know.
Maybe i will fix and edit later when i receive my copies. I think now i am the only one fans who haven't see the Live, MC Selection and Documentary, even i did DL_ed the Live at office but ...
I still need to DL the MC Selection and Documentary first. I have to wait when there's no Jodha Akbar mass streaming again. So i can have my fast internet connection again.
for this yasu's Love Allbum, i give 8.5 stars.
Yes it's good and for the 3rd time i say here how i am not complaining, but still i have to say ...
If this album is a Black Forrest, i'd say yasu forgot to put a cherry on top of it.
next is this ....
~ Whatsoever Update from me
this one is for
5th Season 『 Shangri-la 』 PHOTOBOOK : Miyazaki
B-PASS 2015年3月号: Akihide
B-PASS 2015年3月号 : VAMPS
Enjoii .... !!!!
and keep the worst for the last. next is ....
~ This Whatsoever Story that I need to let go
I did say how i want to be like ULTRON as one of my Resolution for 2015.
Free and happy (from how it he destroyed all things,i think ULTRON is a very happy machine ne ... ) like The ULTRON with no strings attached.
But apparently no strings attached is really hard to do, even for this Inspector Himura who choose to stay inside her private Limbo rather than do or involved into whatsoever things that a normal person will ....
yasu : why ...??
noi : because Inspector Himura think people will never understand her ...
yasu : not even him ...??
noi : NOBODY .... !!! *cryin*
so this story is gonna be another same story about how Inspector Himura failed again for how many times in this relationship shit involved things that SHERLOCK will call as a Human Error (read : love).
so the story starts lyin in the dark with someone new .... ~ ♪♫
noi : i ... ~~ ♬♬
yasu : i told you ne noi_chan, don't sing
noi : but it will make this more dramatic ne
yasu : oh please Drama Queen, STOP .... !!!
noi : なんで 。。。？
back to the story ne, ....
so the story start when Inspector Himura worked on a case together with consultant from another company. Let's just call him as Mr. Darcy (yeah, the same Darcy on Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice).
They worked very well together during the case because this Mr. Darcy is a very lovely and polite man with amazing ability to make very funny jokes that make them get along well together. And then when the case is over, Mr. Darcy had to back to his country.
About 2 weeks after that, Comissioner Viyay (Inspector Himura's boss) told her if Mr. Darcy asked for her Facebook and Comissioner Viyay gave it to him.
And then things that started from work continued into a nice an long chat on Facebook and calling each other on the weekend.
yasu : ええ ちょっとね、noi_chan ...
noi : ん 。。。？
yasu : can you just use you, Darcy, your boss and me ...?
noi : but i am tryin to say is a story ne not a diary ...
yasu : to make it simple ne because we all know this all about you ...
Well then ....
Since my father died, there's a BIG change happened to Comissioner Viyay.
From my fave boss who never care whether i am gonna marry soon or choose to stay single this year into a Probie Matchmaker joining all those muggles around me by nonstop sayin
What about him ...??
he is cute, isn't he Moi?
That guy from tax askin me about you ... etc etc
when we go somewhere and meet a single guy. Now i kinda miss how he always answer she is still busy with his works whenever there's somebody asked me this question
why you're still single?
I think you are too cute to be single ...
that's a question that a single guy will ask to a single woman. And Comissioner Viyay used to be very good about find me answer for that. But now, he's just non-stop annoyed me with all his matchmaking questions ...
and one day he called me and told me if he gave my Facebook acc to Darcy with a note how i must to accept his friend request.
I said OK boss ...!!! to him even it was a bit surpris for me when i found out what he gave to Darcy is my fangirling full of yasu Facebook acc, not the personal one that less yasu.
and then Darcy and i, we're friends on Facebook and yes, i was a bit worry about this because with that fangirling full of yasu Facebook, i know i will make his feeds full of yasu and all my rambling things about i want this, that and many more.
but ...
Something about Darcy that totally different from other guy i ever now is how he also askin about my works and family doing on everytime we talk. In fact, that's one of the reason i say yes to him about tryin to be more involved and attached my self to him aand his message on Valentine's Day,
OMG that was beyond sweet and i totally blown away by him ... !!!
until one day, when he finally asked
Who is that man on your Facebook cover?
Why you have so many photos of him ?
is he your boyfriend or ex ...???
.... etc etc that ended with how i am not being honest to him about this.
I knew that time will come, when he will ask me about this and i have to answer and tell him about this whatsoever hallucinationship and obsession i have with yasu that honestly i don't like to talk about with him.
It's because when Comissioner Viyay introduced me to him, he didn't mention about this hallucinationship and obsession i have with a man named yasu, so i never talk about yasu with him.
I admit, i am somebody who will talk about yasu non stop both on my Facebook or real life. I make all my friend bored with my yasu's talk everyday at office but not with him.
In fact, he is the only person that i don't talk about yasu with because he isn't a fanboy.
so when he finally asked me who is yasu? i dunno what to say, i just say he is a singer and i am a BIG fan of him.
That's all ne, i think adding about your weird obsession about somebody to a person that you are fallin in with is not a good idea, especially when you both are still only 4 months involving each other.
maybe i am a Liar,
But only to my mother, because with that Drama Queen, lying is something very easy for me to do.
for example,
~ when my mother ask me to do something that i don't wanna do i will say i am too tired or i have something else to do. or ...
~ when i don't want to go to school, i pretend to be sick and stay on bed, or
~ whenever i want something and she wont buy it for me, i will pretend to stop eating until she will buy it for me
So when he said how i am not being honest with him that for me, it feels like he was sayin
You're a Liar ... !!!
to me, and eh God that's really hurts,
because see, my eyes maybe not bright as yasu, but i never lie to him. He was the one who never ask ne. I mean if he never ask, do i have to explain everything about me, at this very beginning time of us?
NO WAY i am not gonna do that
I don't like people to know much about me, because there's so many things about me that i still want to keep it for myself and NOBODY should know at this moment
For example, i don't even know who is my real father ne. So do i have to tell him about this, about how nobody i am who was being abandoned by her father because her father couldn't deal with a new baby and lost a wife at the same time?
NO WAY, i am not gonna do that eh ...
Still having him sayin you're a liar ... !!! to me in my mind is hurt ne, indeed it is. As you now there's one BIG problem for a Liar ne. That BIG problem is how it is really hurt when a Liar tellin the truth but nobody believe it.
i wish he said it wrongly like yasu on Liar or LIAR? song, sayin it as ...
you are Liar. I'm tired ... !!!
so i can answer him,
no, i am Noi.
My name is Noi, not Liar .... !!!!! eeh he he he he *got a massive kick from MEGATRON*
yasu : not funny noi_chan ...
noi : see how another fail keep comin to me ...
yasu : then what next, do i have to prepare another super glue?
noi : i dunno ...
i think what i need to do now is pull myself out of this whatsoever things i have with him before this feeling i have for him getting deeper than now. I just don't want to get hurt again. I know it will be hurt more if i stop when i get deeper feelin about him than now.
so i need to STOP naw ...
I will cry maybe 4, 5 days maybe one weeks but then i am sure i am gonna be fine ne. After all i believe the idea about how a girl is a bunny.
A downtown bunny who will never get tired to run after their love.
Even though sometimes their eyes got red after cryin like hell for their failure for love, but after a while that bunny will run again all over the cities ...
yasu : and ...
noi : find another love ...
yasu : so now you're a bunny ...
noi : at this moment, yes
yasu : and a Liar ... ??
noi : no, i am not. He just never ask ...
~owari~