Its not my fault but ill take the blame
I got accepted into IUS. Wow. Now my mommy can be proud. Who was I a year ago? Or a year before that? How much have I changed? Have I changed anyone? Am i better now? Smarter? Prettier? Funnier? .....Happier? My head hurts from this constant thinking of futures. What if im no good at college? What if i hate my job? Its so hard to not follow the plan. Coloring outside of the lines was never allowed therefore now that Im living a cookie cutter life i dont know how to get out of it. I watched this movie under the tuscan sun. It inspired me. But if i were to buy a villa in tuscany(with what money) wouldnt i just have a routine there? No matter where you are or who youre with or what your job is a routine blandness always shows its ugly face. Im so tired right now i can barely type. My head hurts too often. Im too bored too serious too inactive. Its too cold and im too....everything.