To be the hero is all i'll ask....
I love listening to Coheed and Cambria, the music from a musical stand point is just amazing and from a just personal stand point it is just so compelling.
Sometimes i get up in the morning and i don't feel like doing anything i just let life pass me by but i tell my self that i can't let that happen that i am here for a reason, I am here to achieve "Greatness" as i like to say...I'm here to make my dreams come true...I'm here to show them that i don't need them and thats ok. I think of this and I listen to Co&Ca and i just get so filled with energy and happiness that i want to take on the whole world at that very moment.
I know i was put here to make a differance and to make an impact using music it is all just a matter of timing. I can't wait to start playing again...all i can do is keep writing music and wait for time to present the opportunity to me.
With all these forces driving me-The music, The city, The friends, and the girl...words can't describe. It's what tells me just as i'm at that point of quiting where i can't take anymore and i'm about to fall that I think of this and i just keep going. Mostly it's when i'm running, i think about so much when i run...it's like physical meditation. I think about my life and the people in it. I think how i have to make it because I need to take care of my mom and that there is no room for error. I'm not like everyone else in the sense that if i fuck up mom and dad will take care of it...Nope I'm alone on this one and there has never even been a Dad to begin with...It's funny i always think of that line the typical Dad says "Make us proud son"...I never had a dad to say that to me so i say it to my self "Make em' proud and show them all what your made of"...I don't know why it's so important to me but it just is. Not like I regret never having a father, i don't think i've ever shed a tear about it because my mom was so great raising me and i wouldn't have it any other way.
I wonder where i'll be in a year or two...or who i'll be with...I'm learning so much about my passion it's insane sometimes i can't believe i'm actually doing this I mean i'm learning the theory of music on all aspects, Technology music--Synthesizing sounds out of nowhere...ever wondered what a fluted made out of glass thats 20 ft long might sound like or a guitar with strings the size of cables that hold up bridges might sound like cuz i can make, Recording 1 --the coolest class i have taken so far based on what i want the rest of my life to be, and Rock music--the history of rock n roll, how it started and what it came from.
This can't be school...this can't be real.
Then theres the girl she's so great and she doesn't even know it...I think she wants to be loved and have someone hold her, tell her it is going to be ok and things are better because she is in their life. I think she is afraid of having her heart broken or afraid of letting someone get that close. But i want to be that person and be that close. i don't know what it is i just want to be with her so bad and when everyone says give up i just want to try harder to win her heart...and trust me that shit ain't easy. This just may be life's most challeging fight yet and so far i'm getting my ass handed to me but i keep coming back for more but for how long i don't know...
She's worth it but am i???
Can I make her proud of me???
There are so many things left un-said and this only a small little fraction of how i feel and think, the rest I can't put in to words right now...
I have the idea for my next Tattoo i'm not going to reveal it right now because you really need to visualize it but if I get it drawn up i'll take a picture of it and post it...
I bid you all goodnite or for some of you good morning.
They say if you work hard enough dreams come true and i'm so close i can taste it but it will be a hard and testing road to travel. Where others have failed i have to succeed and over come. This my test...my Fight, i have the heart...and with out question i will succeed.
With all my love
Hoping to keep up the fight
Trevor
Sometimes i get up in the morning and i don't feel like doing anything i just let life pass me by but i tell my self that i can't let that happen that i am here for a reason, I am here to achieve "Greatness" as i like to say...I'm here to make my dreams come true...I'm here to show them that i don't need them and thats ok. I think of this and I listen to Co&Ca and i just get so filled with energy and happiness that i want to take on the whole world at that very moment.
I know i was put here to make a differance and to make an impact using music it is all just a matter of timing. I can't wait to start playing again...all i can do is keep writing music and wait for time to present the opportunity to me.
With all these forces driving me-The music, The city, The friends, and the girl...words can't describe. It's what tells me just as i'm at that point of quiting where i can't take anymore and i'm about to fall that I think of this and i just keep going. Mostly it's when i'm running, i think about so much when i run...it's like physical meditation. I think about my life and the people in it. I think how i have to make it because I need to take care of my mom and that there is no room for error. I'm not like everyone else in the sense that if i fuck up mom and dad will take care of it...Nope I'm alone on this one and there has never even been a Dad to begin with...It's funny i always think of that line the typical Dad says "Make us proud son"...I never had a dad to say that to me so i say it to my self "Make em' proud and show them all what your made of"...I don't know why it's so important to me but it just is. Not like I regret never having a father, i don't think i've ever shed a tear about it because my mom was so great raising me and i wouldn't have it any other way.
I wonder where i'll be in a year or two...or who i'll be with...I'm learning so much about my passion it's insane sometimes i can't believe i'm actually doing this I mean i'm learning the theory of music on all aspects, Technology music--Synthesizing sounds out of nowhere...ever wondered what a fluted made out of glass thats 20 ft long might sound like or a guitar with strings the size of cables that hold up bridges might sound like cuz i can make, Recording 1 --the coolest class i have taken so far based on what i want the rest of my life to be, and Rock music--the history of rock n roll, how it started and what it came from.
This can't be school...this can't be real.
Then theres the girl she's so great and she doesn't even know it...I think she wants to be loved and have someone hold her, tell her it is going to be ok and things are better because she is in their life. I think she is afraid of having her heart broken or afraid of letting someone get that close. But i want to be that person and be that close. i don't know what it is i just want to be with her so bad and when everyone says give up i just want to try harder to win her heart...and trust me that shit ain't easy. This just may be life's most challeging fight yet and so far i'm getting my ass handed to me but i keep coming back for more but for how long i don't know...
She's worth it but am i???
Can I make her proud of me???
There are so many things left un-said and this only a small little fraction of how i feel and think, the rest I can't put in to words right now...
I have the idea for my next Tattoo i'm not going to reveal it right now because you really need to visualize it but if I get it drawn up i'll take a picture of it and post it...
I bid you all goodnite or for some of you good morning.
They say if you work hard enough dreams come true and i'm so close i can taste it but it will be a hard and testing road to travel. Where others have failed i have to succeed and over come. This my test...my Fight, i have the heart...and with out question i will succeed.
With all my love
Hoping to keep up the fight
Trevor