God as my witness
Oh lord. Someone reminded me that i have an LJ that i'm actually allowed to write in from time to time heh.
I'm not even sure where to begin or end or whatever so you know... lets just start with this past week.
Actually no.
lets just be as random as fucking possible because i think it'll be a good time. It'll be a smile.
Christmas has come and gone. Anyone that knows me should know by now that I don't like christmas. I don't particularily care for the fake lovey doveyness of it all. "In the spirit of Christmas!" what the fuck ever. Christmas has become the King of all hallmark holidays. Bitter? Yeah maybe. Fuck you i have my reasons. You don't know them you don't need to. Have a good day.
I have found out recently that everything is my fault. I mean I always suspected it before but the words have actually been spoken to me now so I feel I can at least rest easier now knowing that I've at least been right about that.
I'm drama. HA! who knew? I'm so glad someones insightful enough to know that about me without even knowing who i am. Cute. Pardon me while i stab this fork in your eye you greasy accident prone dick. I hope you get skull fucked by a monkey with crabs and a raging case of the clap.
I feel i've been stuck somewhere grey. Nothing definitive. Not that I care. Maybe thats my problem. I don't. I gave up on talking to people that treated me like crap. I gave up on trying to impress people that I didn't yet know. I gave up on pretending to have fun when I"m not. And I gave up on trying to make everyone happy because I never was. So what the hell do I do now? Not a whole hell of a lot. I do love my friends tho. They keep me sane. I'm probably just restless. I haven't gone anywhere since july. I need to get out. So bad. Even for just a day or 2. or 3. I don't know. & thats about all I have to say right now because I have no idea what i'm actually talking about & i'm far to schlepy to try to explain my thoughts. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
Hope everyone had a good fucking christmas. Hope you all got lots of good shit.
I gotta go.
I'm not even sure where to begin or end or whatever so you know... lets just start with this past week.
Actually no.
lets just be as random as fucking possible because i think it'll be a good time. It'll be a smile.
Christmas has come and gone. Anyone that knows me should know by now that I don't like christmas. I don't particularily care for the fake lovey doveyness of it all. "In the spirit of Christmas!" what the fuck ever. Christmas has become the King of all hallmark holidays. Bitter? Yeah maybe. Fuck you i have my reasons. You don't know them you don't need to. Have a good day.
I have found out recently that everything is my fault. I mean I always suspected it before but the words have actually been spoken to me now so I feel I can at least rest easier now knowing that I've at least been right about that.
I'm drama. HA! who knew? I'm so glad someones insightful enough to know that about me without even knowing who i am. Cute. Pardon me while i stab this fork in your eye you greasy accident prone dick. I hope you get skull fucked by a monkey with crabs and a raging case of the clap.
I feel i've been stuck somewhere grey. Nothing definitive. Not that I care. Maybe thats my problem. I don't. I gave up on talking to people that treated me like crap. I gave up on trying to impress people that I didn't yet know. I gave up on pretending to have fun when I"m not. And I gave up on trying to make everyone happy because I never was. So what the hell do I do now? Not a whole hell of a lot. I do love my friends tho. They keep me sane. I'm probably just restless. I haven't gone anywhere since july. I need to get out. So bad. Even for just a day or 2. or 3. I don't know. & thats about all I have to say right now because I have no idea what i'm actually talking about & i'm far to schlepy to try to explain my thoughts. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
Hope everyone had a good fucking christmas. Hope you all got lots of good shit.
I gotta go.