Fuck it

[nohinatx]

Roomie Hope asked me what I hate tonight.
I hate feeling like this.
I hate failing tests.
I hate being walked home/to class when I don't want to be.
I hate thinking about cutting to solve my problems.
I hate actually cutting to try to solve my problems.
I hate not knowing what he's doing right now.
I hate thinking about how I hate not knowing.
I hate feeling so sick.
I hate not eating right like I should.
I hate not having money.
I hate not having another job.
I hate feeling awkward around people I shouldn't feel awkward around.
I hate not being more creative.
I hate fake nails.
I hate not being able to help my brother through his problems.
I hate that he's probably going to drop out of high school.
I hate guy friends who act like little pussy ass bitches.
I hate school.
I hate not being grown up.
I hate growing up.
I hate being lonely when I shouldn't be.
I hate missing him.
I hate knowing he doesn't really miss me.
I hate her.
I hate being so dependant on technology that as of two years ago I didn't even have.
I hate Austin electric for not sending me my fucking deposit refund.
I hate Dell for losing my fucking rebate that I dug through trash for.
I hate living in a dorm.
I hate not living in the country anymore.
I hate not being able to drive as much as I want to.
And I hate hating so many fucking things.
Get the fuck over it, right?
Fuck.