ugho funko mother-o fucker-o
license tomorrow? we'll see as i sit and anticipate my future/life and death that is determined by my perfornance in 10 hours and 35 mins. too bad as i was driving tonight, approx 12 hours before i was supposed to take my test, my mother decides to tell me that i cant parallel park. why thank you.
and not only that but lorraine fell asleep on the phone with me so im alone. but i talked to kayce n im downloading some good songs now... to perhaps play in MY MINI VAN WHAT?
i need to see ana.
whats up i just felt like writing cause ihave nothing better to do. i was in the birthday cake at founders day today. i went to target i got my eyebrows waxed and it feels great. and u know what i havnt talked about recently...
i want basketball to start now.
too bad it never ended. and im still playing and actually have practice tomorrow and sunday lol but i want basketball at school to start. i wanna b.. i wanna b good. i wanna b great and that is my goal. what exactly defines good/great? everybody has their own personal preference. mine? do not get frustrated and lose your head, no matter what happens. if i stay positive, everything will be fine. do not be afraid to try something new. last year i was being a lil pussy and afraid to do new moves i had tried for fear of messing up and being seen as someone who was trying to be better than they really were, or trying to show off. NO dammit i can do it i just get nervous so none of the bullshit this year. and i dunno what else, mainly just stay focused.
homecomings next saturday. interesting i wonder whats up with reggie. field hockey what?
yea thats right bitch we're number one (as i sit here knocking on wood)
GO BRYN MAWR HOCKEY
hm, im so bored but watever ill go out tomorrow with my license and i hate sundays becuase i have to start work and not only that but ihave bryn mawr basketball which i love but im going to miss cuase of either aau basketball or swimming fuckin A DAMMIT fuckin fucker dammit ineed a reason to go to aacounty tomorow and i dont have one anymore. but watever that will come with change i know i just need things to come to me? work themselves out? NO dammit this break isnt going to be a break forever cause i said so.
i left my backpack in the trailor. that is the second time this week i have left my backpack at school. the FUCKS wrong with me?
and not only that, im feeling my armpits right now and they're quite smoothe. yes they're smoothe and yes i said im feeling them.
im downloading the song i listened to in amandas car "DROP IT LIKE ITS HOT' snoop dogg n pharell
ANASTASIA ALICIA BAKER
so mom told me some great news. MY FIRST TANK OF GAS IS ON HER! WOHOOOO! too bad i dont have a job or money. maybe i should get one. but from where? where art thou oh money-o?
maybe ill become a theif.
this is me being random because well, im here so i might as well say everythign thats going on in my head so that it will all be out.
i dont want to be hurt anymore. i dont wanna feel pain. i dont wanna have to deal with this anymore. my big ass bruise, and my swollen ass heart. yes, my heart is swollen/broken/in pain. and i am in a kinda pain i cannot describe. a like pain that i feel in my gut. and i dont often feel the gut but i do everytime i think about it. and then, i get sad and any slightest thing that might have been good in my life (there really isnt much) goes to hell and i think how much better life could be, cause i know it could be better and i know everyone and everthing including this computer is tired of me writing about this damn situation but obviously its bothering me and i cant stop thinking about it because i try not to think about it during the dya but its so hard i cant think about it anymore. dammit why does life suck so bad. :( waaaaaa like a lil baby. waaaaaa (hanvt made that noise in a while i kinda forgot about it)
goodbye.
.hidingitallinside.
love, the unloved.