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[nohabitshere]

Almost starting to envy cloistered nuns.

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[nohabitshere]

Seems simpler.

[nohabitshere]

Well, I mean... once they make the decision, then all the temptations from the outside world are gone, at least physically. So I think it'd be easier to stick to your vows.

[nohabitshere]

You know the answer to that.

I've already been to Confession and I don't feel any better.

[nohabitshere]

We kissed. But he was really drugged up and it was a bad decision not only because of that.

[nohabitshere]

Novitiates aren't supposed to date. And this is worse than that because it's just - it's kissing a boy I'm not even involved with. And we really don't have much in common and clearly it isn't going to end in, like, marriage so why should I give up my calling to a religious life just because I find myself suddenly completely infatuated with a boy? It's not like I haven't had crushes before, after all, but I decided that God was more important and now I just feel ...lost.

[nohabitshere]

Well, I mean, there's a bit of the flesh part, too.

Because Christ started the Church by anointing Peter the first Pope.

[nohabitshere]

I don't know.

[nohabitshere]

I hate not knowing what to do or what God's path is for me. I was so sure about it and now I'm not sure about anything.

I don't know what choice God wants me to make, no matter how hard I pray. I hate this.