amy

[nogoodrottenman]

ugh i dont even no what to write. um yeah i cant sleep i dont i dont want to live right now id like to die maybe then people will see hm maybe i was wrong maybe he does need her idk nothing changes anything i cant do anything right. id give her the world just for a moment of her time n it feels like shed rather do nothing then have anything to do with me. idk what to do. i wish someone would acctually just once tell me what i wanted to here n maybe just once things would go my way. the last day things went well idk sometimes during the summer i guess. i dont no if i wana live anymore. like i dont wana live if i have to live each and ever second in totaly misory whats the point really? i wish someone would just kill me this would be so much easyer. this hole in my chest gets bigger everyday n hurts more n more. i dont no why anyone would want to do this to another person n not just any person but a freind or someone that loves them more then anything n no matter how much they hurt that person they wont stop loveing them. everyones telling me just get over her but i cant theres so much going on in my life now i really need her to be there for me i need someone to just tell me they love me. no one loves me anymore. i hate my family maybe if they all werent so selfish this wouldnt be so bad. maybe i shouldnt be so selfish but i cant help to be hurt by this whole thing. i just fell so alone so increadibly alone.

if this is the last time any of u here from me cause i dont know whats gunna happen tonight cause its only 11 n im sure ill be up all night id like to say that im sorry n that im a retard n that idk just live your lives without me n be happy. "id like to be remembered as a smiling face n not this fucking wreck thats takes its place"