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Apparently I’ve not said anything about anything in my journal for a while now. So I’ll be a little revealing. My life is jam-packed hectic right now. What is with my cursor disappearing in MS word when the background is set to gray? Ahh I get it now… the opposite of white is black and the opposite of black is white but the opposite of gray Is… gray lol. MS is retarded.
So my life these days… It consists of getting up when I feel rested and going to work. At work I’ve been dealing with a lot of stuff recently. As the IT admin I end up having to step in and say “Enough!” and reorganize the way the company collects there behavior data. (I work at a autism treatment center). At any rate you can imagine that this has nothing to do with being an IT administrator. I have other things going on too. I am rolling out M$ updates and Installing Symantec Virus Scanning software on all the computers here… which was taking days. Now it’s going to take weeks.
At school I am still just taking calculus. I had my first test last Tuesday which I believe I did pretty good on. It’s a B for sure. Unless I just did Nothing my teacher wanted to see. Then I probably did not do so well. (He is really particular on how you solve your problems) He wants everyone to be able to be a part of the Mathematicians community apparently. Which I think is awesome; I just wish my other teachers would have been so strict. I still have problems with the fact that teachers do not focus enough on building formulas. But o well really.
At home I’ve been looking for love. Which has proven two things. 1.Most women don’t understand what it’s like to be a guy looking for a date. 2. I am sooo royally screwed when it comes to this.
I just am not compatible with most people. I mean people usually know if they are compatible with someone if they pay attention. But I think it’s more normal for people to be compatible and just not be able to get a relationship to work out because of whatever reason. And when I say I am not compatible with most people … I mean all people except for about 1-2%. I’ve looked at hundreds and hundreds of profiles on the most lenient of standards I could afford to handle… and maybe I found one or two people that are compatible. But they live far too far away.
I know I know… dating websites don’t work… but it was the only thing I was willing to try. Because it doesn’t take time/does not require me getting to know hundreds and hundreds of people. Which has always been unacceptable to me. I’ve had people unreachably far away say they like me. But nobody in my life has said such a thing.
I don’t put out the right kind of vibe for a single guy.. and I don’t go to the right places to let people know I am available. I will not subject myself to one night out for this cause. Because I don’t think anyone should go out to bars… ever. So I inherently can not believe I’ll find a soul mate there. I refuse to believe it’s even possible. Not dancing/not drinking/not out there. I’ve thought work and school would be a good place to find someone like that. But well… just because someone is into the same things you are does not make them compatible for dating. I don’t know what brought all of this on, I don’t have many friends ya know. So I wanted someone to hang out with and talk to… and that’s about it. I don’t really have much of a drive to be in anything more serious. Maybe the situation is complicated because I never deal with it? I don’t know.
There are so many things on my mind lately, and I’ve been so preoccupied by the schedule and everything.
So my life these days… It consists of getting up when I feel rested and going to work. At work I’ve been dealing with a lot of stuff recently. As the IT admin I end up having to step in and say “Enough!” and reorganize the way the company collects there behavior data. (I work at a autism treatment center). At any rate you can imagine that this has nothing to do with being an IT administrator. I have other things going on too. I am rolling out M$ updates and Installing Symantec Virus Scanning software on all the computers here… which was taking days. Now it’s going to take weeks.
At school I am still just taking calculus. I had my first test last Tuesday which I believe I did pretty good on. It’s a B for sure. Unless I just did Nothing my teacher wanted to see. Then I probably did not do so well. (He is really particular on how you solve your problems) He wants everyone to be able to be a part of the Mathematicians community apparently. Which I think is awesome; I just wish my other teachers would have been so strict. I still have problems with the fact that teachers do not focus enough on building formulas. But o well really.
At home I’ve been looking for love. Which has proven two things. 1.Most women don’t understand what it’s like to be a guy looking for a date. 2. I am sooo royally screwed when it comes to this.
I just am not compatible with most people. I mean people usually know if they are compatible with someone if they pay attention. But I think it’s more normal for people to be compatible and just not be able to get a relationship to work out because of whatever reason. And when I say I am not compatible with most people … I mean all people except for about 1-2%. I’ve looked at hundreds and hundreds of profiles on the most lenient of standards I could afford to handle… and maybe I found one or two people that are compatible. But they live far too far away.
I know I know… dating websites don’t work… but it was the only thing I was willing to try. Because it doesn’t take time/does not require me getting to know hundreds and hundreds of people. Which has always been unacceptable to me. I’ve had people unreachably far away say they like me. But nobody in my life has said such a thing.
I don’t put out the right kind of vibe for a single guy.. and I don’t go to the right places to let people know I am available. I will not subject myself to one night out for this cause. Because I don’t think anyone should go out to bars… ever. So I inherently can not believe I’ll find a soul mate there. I refuse to believe it’s even possible. Not dancing/not drinking/not out there. I’ve thought work and school would be a good place to find someone like that. But well… just because someone is into the same things you are does not make them compatible for dating. I don’t know what brought all of this on, I don’t have many friends ya know. So I wanted someone to hang out with and talk to… and that’s about it. I don’t really have much of a drive to be in anything more serious. Maybe the situation is complicated because I never deal with it? I don’t know.
There are so many things on my mind lately, and I’ve been so preoccupied by the schedule and everything.