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i am kinda worn out after this week.
Some how i feel better then i usually do.
Got to visit some people i really like this week. And although it was all far too innocent... I could not help but come away with a lot more perspective on life then i am use to.
You can say it highlighted that i really am dumb for feeling so isolated. And i really am ashamed for not having more drive in my life. But i came away feeling great about who i was, and who i am trying to be. I had lots of fun, even though...i felt awkward, and probably looked aloof or uninterested. Such is the way of things when i meet up with people like that. I have a hard time of knowing how to act, and so when i am not sure i don't really emote so much.
i hope there is a chance to do it all again, or better yet to really make memories together as friends while we are young. That could be a fools hope. I probably never had a real chance of doing that, or i missed it completely.
I am off to go program some more, and read some more, and write some more. A scholar's work is never done.
Some how i feel better then i usually do.
Got to visit some people i really like this week. And although it was all far too innocent... I could not help but come away with a lot more perspective on life then i am use to.
You can say it highlighted that i really am dumb for feeling so isolated. And i really am ashamed for not having more drive in my life. But i came away feeling great about who i was, and who i am trying to be. I had lots of fun, even though...i felt awkward, and probably looked aloof or uninterested. Such is the way of things when i meet up with people like that. I have a hard time of knowing how to act, and so when i am not sure i don't really emote so much.
i hope there is a chance to do it all again, or better yet to really make memories together as friends while we are young. That could be a fools hope. I probably never had a real chance of doing that, or i missed it completely.
I am off to go program some more, and read some more, and write some more. A scholar's work is never done.