over, so very over.
Well it is definitely a "break up" and not a break. He has a new girlfriend, not sure if they are "official" or what but he's spending a lot of time with her as far as I can tell. I think it likely he was seeing her before I was moved out of the house. I live with a friend now.
Sharing the same group of friends in the same (small) city is hard. He's bringing her, the new girl, to a party we're both going to tonight. I'll have to get used to seeing them together. I need to meet some new people and widen my social circle but I don't even know where to start.
I'm trying to reconcile myself with the fact that I very well might be alone for the rest of my life. Isn't it nice to have nothing to look forward to? All my friends say that if he wasn't right, then my real Mr. Right will be so much better...
No I shouldn't write the rest of what I want to. This self-loathing is best kept to myself. That way people don't think I'm insane.
I guess I need to start dating again. Ugh does anything sound more awful than that? No. The answer is no.
note to self:
Be strong.
You can be alone.
You've done it for a long time.
(even though it has been a while)
And you'll have a long time to work on it.
Like, forever.
Oh but I did successfully finish my first 5K race over the weekend. Ran it in 28:58. Not bad. Got to get better though.
Sharing the same group of friends in the same (small) city is hard. He's bringing her, the new girl, to a party we're both going to tonight. I'll have to get used to seeing them together. I need to meet some new people and widen my social circle but I don't even know where to start.
I'm trying to reconcile myself with the fact that I very well might be alone for the rest of my life. Isn't it nice to have nothing to look forward to? All my friends say that if he wasn't right, then my real Mr. Right will be so much better...
No I shouldn't write the rest of what I want to. This self-loathing is best kept to myself. That way people don't think I'm insane.
I guess I need to start dating again. Ugh does anything sound more awful than that? No. The answer is no.
note to self:
Be strong.
You can be alone.
You've done it for a long time.
(even though it has been a while)
And you'll have a long time to work on it.
Like, forever.
Oh but I did successfully finish my first 5K race over the weekend. Ran it in 28:58. Not bad. Got to get better though.