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[nofunk1ngway23]

am i not doing something right - not praying right - not talking right - y'know i always say that i need to be someone else. i havn't been really succesful aobut that. i understand now that i can't be someone else and that if u don't wanta except me for what i am then fine. i think that i'm the person that people talk to when they have no one else to talk to. u look at me in the halls and u don't say a fucking thing. sometimes when your in a good mood i guess u might say a word or two. you don't fucking know me and you don't want to. and thts all right with me. u have people - i don't have anyone. do u understand that? anyone - alone is pretty much the loneliest word in any language and that's what it's meant for. don't say that your alone to me. don't tell me that your boy/girl friend broke up w/ u because i think that it's so fucking funny - the next time one of my "friends" cries about their boy/girl friend breaking up w/ them i'm gonna laugh so hard right in your face because what ur doing is so stupid. this is how it works. you don't know the person in the beginning - but then you guys are going out and you love eachother - its like - when the fuck did this happen. you didn't know the person yesterday but now you love them. please you don't know what the hell the word love means. oh we're in love now - but when you break up w/ him/her you aren't in love anymore - ok? because that makes a lot of sence. you guys have sooo much growing up to do and a lot of fucking maurity. i hope that something horrible, terribly, tragic happens to you so u understand wht the fuck i'm going through. i hope - in the end you end up like me and i will treat you like you treat me - oh yea in class you all really like me right? outside of school - in the summer - not one fucking word to any of you. why is that - u don't care about me. it's not like i'm rejecting your company. whatever i'm done with this topic - this isn't the last time you'll hear this either.

i doubt anyone will comment on me. no one comments on anything. they just type what they think about wht u wrote. a comment is something to someones face.