until recently,
i had been in a rut of sorts. unmotivated and apathetic. having desires but not acting upon them because i knew what the end result would be. it removes the necessity to create a situation, if you let yourself believe you know what it will be. its hard to pick a direction, but thats not as important as actually moving. the meaning of life and the secret to happiness are linked to creation. that is key. its amazing how the simple act of writing something down creates an effect that endures throughout time. and it amounts. and grows. everything grand takes time.