Ugh
So yeah, i dunno where else to turn, so livejournal it is. Last week when i went to get my second hepitits shot, i mentioned that i had been kinda down lately. So the nurse made me an appointment with one of the doctors there for next week. he's gonna talk to me and see if i need some kind of medication for depression, which might not be such a bad idea. I've been real down lately (as you've probably read, assuming anyone reads these things, even if not, it's good for me). I wish i could just come out and tell my mother all the things i write here. She's coming to visit next week, and i dunno if i'm gonna tell her everything or just pretend to be happy while she's here. I've tried hinting at the fact i hate it here, and im not happy, but she shrugs it off and says "Well its only another year, you can get through it, it's not so bad, blah blah blah". God i wish she'd just listen for once, but whatever, she's been there for me in the past, so hopefully she'll be there now. But now that i think about it, i've never really been this depressed before, not even when my grandma died, cause i had my friends there for me, which is more than i can say now. SO hopfully i'll get some pills or something to bring me out of this funk.