Oct 03, 2008 04:45
i just realized this will be my last christmas in my house. my last birthday. holy shit i can make myself beyond miserable in a few minutes. someone buy me another round. i'm not ready to lead this depression into the new year. i'm not ready at all.
more than ever i need someone to curl up next to and youre not that warm spot in the bed next to me. just a void. i had a dream that surprised myself last night. i had a dream that caught me off guard. i have a dream that one day... oh wait. wrong dream. this dream involved a helicopter and white knuckles.
todd and i were accosted tonight because he called two strippers, sluts (obviously not to their faces). their pimp, however (fuck that word), did hear and decided to latch on to the back of mine and todd's shirt... security very quickly defused the situation and escorted the man and his slu....strippers to their vehicle. after which jordan decided it would be a good idea to take his beer bottle and slam it down in the parking lot, to which another slut proclaimed to security that he had indeed broken a bottle. he picked it up but we were not welcome guests for the remainder of the evening. fuck you, we were leaving anyway.....
i met a guy from holly springs playing basketball. i'm tryin to see how many friends i can make before i actually live there so i can maybe have a place to play basketball when i move. otherwise i'm gonna have to drive at night to go to a.w.'s and then proceed to mt moriah. not cool. not cool at all.. i should just acquire an apt. in the midtown area like i wanted. cool?
the vast majority of people i see when i go out are people who i play basketball with. despite durden's law of not being who you were in basketball (obviously substituted) as you were in the rest of the world, i greeted each of the guys i saw cordially, with a smile and a hand shake/half high five/half hug. it was pleasant. i've made a lot of friends this semester. this makes me happy. i really should start learning their names.. i just don't want to be that token white guy who walks around before the game starts learning everyones names and introducing themselves. maybe that makes me an asshole, but i'd rather be an asshole than a chump any day.
with just one touch you make the world stand still. the smallest graze of your fingertips makes me indescribably calm. sleepy calm, like everything is right so what could i possibly improve?