count them 1, 2, & 3
that's all i've got, but i needed to know it.
last night was the worst in a long time.
after i panicked and then woke up so that i could remind myself to breathe (i woke up because i wasn't, not for a long time, but like holding your breath) they started in. first anne with her soncern and reminding me i am her best friend. then when i fell asleep again and woke up mike called, i'm not sure what for because he finally said he would call later because he couldn't understand what i was saying. but still. and then i woke up this morning and lace had left a message of love and concern.
i guess that's all i need. none of them are here, but it doesn't matter. i don't need the distraction just the attention. and so if i make it a point to talk to them all at least once a week i should be able to hold it together.
matters are not being helped by getting sick, that's for damn sure.
last night was the worst in a long time.
after i panicked and then woke up so that i could remind myself to breathe (i woke up because i wasn't, not for a long time, but like holding your breath) they started in. first anne with her soncern and reminding me i am her best friend. then when i fell asleep again and woke up mike called, i'm not sure what for because he finally said he would call later because he couldn't understand what i was saying. but still. and then i woke up this morning and lace had left a message of love and concern.
i guess that's all i need. none of them are here, but it doesn't matter. i don't need the distraction just the attention. and so if i make it a point to talk to them all at least once a week i should be able to hold it together.
matters are not being helped by getting sick, that's for damn sure.