It cracks me up that you've changed. I only put half the blame on you. I could've called, but I didn't want to. I didn't want to only because you seemed a lot happier if I wasn't in the picture. Five other people agree with me on one thing, and that thing is that you could've called too--it wasn't always up to me to call. But you never did--maybe once, maybe twice, and like I said, I figured you were happier because I could tell you weren't the same person anymore.
There was more than one occasion when you & Krysta were supposed to call me to hang out but you both never did. For example when Andrew was away and I called you guys to hang out, but you were at Target getting coffee at Starbucks and that you'd call when you were done so you could come get me. 4 hours later...no call and I was ditched because you found 2 other people to hang out with. How would you feel if you were in my situation then? Pissed. Really pissed. You guys never invited me anywhere, even when I talked to you in an IM and asked what you were up to that day. "I'm going here or there"...but I'd get no invite. That's why I decided to never call you guys anymore because why bother if I never got invited anyways. You could've at least called me because I've known you a lot longer than the other one.
We were friends since freshman year of high school. I know things change--especially you over the last few months--but whatever happens, happens. The last few months of our friendship I felt like I was on the backburner. The last to know everything yet I was classified as your best friend. ?????? I don't know, that doesn't make sense to me, but do what you wish.
And it's funny when my mother mentions that we barely hang out anymore to your mother...it gets flipped around that I called Krysta a whore. That's cool too, you can make up stuff if you want. A few people that Andrew knows mentioned it to him, and he said it to my mother one day over dinner. I never said anything, I'm not blaming it on Andrew either because he didn't say anything. Your mother actually mentioned it to my mother and they both agreed--that's what my mom told me & my mom doesn't talk shit.
Oh & I heard from 3 other people that you've talked about me too when we were still friends. The whole 'filming process'. How kind of you when I've never said anything bad about you except recently when I told you to go fuck yourself.
If anything I'm concerned because you've changed so much, and you definitely copy Krysta (I have 3 other sources that agree)..not saying that's a bad thing of course, but because you do copy her--you're not the same person anymore. You might say you haven't changed, or you might agree, but yeah--you've changed quite a bit.
You might wonder why I said I had so many people agree with me, because when our friendship seemed non-existant at the very end...I had discussions with people I could trust and they told me they've noticed you've changed as well. I had to talk to some people about it because it bothered me, and to be blatantly honest, it still does. Because we had a great friendship--and we didn't have to hang out every single day to be best friends--but the times we had were good, we had funny memories, and we'd try to do fun things when we could. Now it's all just a memory.
I have always believed in the phrase, I forgive but I don't forget. I forgive. But I certainly won't forget. I apologize. But I'm stubborn about it because I feel I deserve an apology as well because it's only half my fault.
There was more than one occasion when you & Krysta were supposed to call me to hang out but you both never did. For example when Andrew was away and I called you guys to hang out, but you were at Target getting coffee at Starbucks and that you'd call when you were done so you could come get me. 4 hours later...no call and I was ditched because you found 2 other people to hang out with. How would you feel if you were in my situation then? Pissed. Really pissed. You guys never invited me anywhere, even when I talked to you in an IM and asked what you were up to that day. "I'm going here or there"...but I'd get no invite. That's why I decided to never call you guys anymore because why bother if I never got invited anyways. You could've at least called me because I've known you a lot longer than the other one.
We were friends since freshman year of high school. I know things change--especially you over the last few months--but whatever happens, happens. The last few months of our friendship I felt like I was on the backburner. The last to know everything yet I was classified as your best friend. ?????? I don't know, that doesn't make sense to me, but do what you wish.
And it's funny when my mother mentions that we barely hang out anymore to your mother...it gets flipped around that I called Krysta a whore. That's cool too, you can make up stuff if you want. A few people that Andrew knows mentioned it to him, and he said it to my mother one day over dinner. I never said anything, I'm not blaming it on Andrew either because he didn't say anything. Your mother actually mentioned it to my mother and they both agreed--that's what my mom told me & my mom doesn't talk shit.
Oh & I heard from 3 other people that you've talked about me too when we were still friends. The whole 'filming process'. How kind of you when I've never said anything bad about you except recently when I told you to go fuck yourself.
If anything I'm concerned because you've changed so much, and you definitely copy Krysta (I have 3 other sources that agree)..not saying that's a bad thing of course, but because you do copy her--you're not the same person anymore. You might say you haven't changed, or you might agree, but yeah--you've changed quite a bit.
You might wonder why I said I had so many people agree with me, because when our friendship seemed non-existant at the very end...I had discussions with people I could trust and they told me they've noticed you've changed as well. I had to talk to some people about it because it bothered me, and to be blatantly honest, it still does. Because we had a great friendship--and we didn't have to hang out every single day to be best friends--but the times we had were good, we had funny memories, and we'd try to do fun things when we could. Now it's all just a memory.
I have always believed in the phrase, I forgive but I don't forget.
I forgive. But I certainly won't forget.
I apologize. But I'm stubborn about it because I feel I deserve an apology as well because it's only half my fault.
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