yay
I am finally starting to feel more content, less empty. And the other day, for a few moments, I actually felt happy again, it sort of surprised me to realize that I was happy in that moment, a nice surprise. The cold, wet blanket I've been wrapped up in for too long now is finally peeling back so I can see the autumn sunshine. I'm still kind of lonely, but I'm becoming okay with that. I delight in my own company, and in my favorite bittersweet season of escalating holidays.