dear paw paw

[noelle810]

if i could say anything to him now:

im so sorry i never called or wrote
im so sorry i didnt fight to be a part of your life
im so sorry you had to hurt
im so sorry i didnt miss class and leave on wednesday instead of friday
im so sorry you didnt know me
im so sorry you have no memories of me
im so sorry i have no memories of you
im so sorry the whole world wasnt blessed to know you

im so thankful to be your granddaughter
im so thankful to come from your blood, because i know i must be worth something if even a small part of me is a part of you
im so thankful you worked so hard your whole life to provide for the beautiful family that i am a part of today

i hope you can see me now and know that i do not forget you
i hope i will see you one day and learn that you did not forget me
i hope i fall in love with someone and can be as happy as you and grandma were for 61 years

i think i needed to address that somewhere in my life.